woman up!

You sit on your bed your face in your hands. "I should just cancel."

You feel Karen's hand on your back. "Don't cancel."

You sigh in frustration "My dad's in town! He's looking for me, he wants to talk to me, my mom wants to see me. It's all too much!"

"I know hun, but are you going to talk to them tonight?"

You shake your head no "I really don't want to deal with it tonight."

"Then why let it ruin your plans? Deal with it tomorrow okay? For now, enjoy your life. You never know what'll happen tomorrow." She had a point but you couldn't imagine how you could enjoy your date. Before you could tell her you heard a knock at the door. {Please dont be him again.}

"Can you get it? You have a better rapport with him than I do," you ask her and she nods. You sit on the bed clinging to the shadows in the room. Imagining what you could have done to it, how you could have made it your own for once. Not having to worry about being judged if you bought the wrong thing. You barely hear what was being said you were so lost in thought.

Karen came back to you smiling. "It's brian. Do you want me to tell him you're not going?" You thought back to an old kung fu movie you watched where the kung fu master reached into someone's chest and ripped his still-beating heart out. You didn't know if you were the victim or the kung fu master.

"I'll tell him, he should hear it from me." You climb out of bed and greet brian at the door. He looked so handsome, he wasn't wearing a tux this time but he might as well have. His black sports coat hid a nice forest green dress shirt fit him perfectly.

"Ready to go?" he beamed his smile at you that seemed to light the entire room. The thought of telling him now and turning off his smile left you a hollow husk. You thought you were done being a husk.

"I'm ready. Sorry to have kept you waiting." You smile up at him, your short heels bringing you eye level to his chin.

"You're worth waiting for." He replies offering you his arm.

"Such a charmer," you say taking his arm. Outside he opens the car door for you and you slide inside. As he's walking around the car you see your dad still sitting out in his car. He didn't seem to recognize you before or now. Would he look at you the same if he did? You shake the thoughts from your head, that's tomorrows problem you tell yourself. Tonight was just about you and your man.