She didn't love it

Nicole considers your question.

"That's...complicated. Do I mind you watching me have sex? No, I like that I can excite you. Do I regret having sex with Matt? It feels a little wierd, but no, it's okay. I don't mind the roleplaying either."

"But?" you can hear the word in her voice, even though she didn't say it.

"But I don't enjoy humiliating you, acting like I enjoy sex better with others, I don't enjoy hurting you. It makes me feel guilty even though you enjoy it."

"Oh, Nicole, honey." You squeeze her hand.

"So that'll be a special treat thing, okay? Now if you'll give me my hand back I'll get dressed."

"Nope, sorry. I've recently converted to the religion of Nicole shall not wear clothes. I'm going to have to ask that you respect my deeply held religious beliefs."

Overhearing your conversation Sarah interjects with "Hey John, one word- Outfits!"

"I find your ideas intriguing and would like to sign up for your newsletter," you joke as you and your friends share a laugh.

As you and your friends clean up you realize you need to bite the bullet and apologize to Miranda.

Sarah calls her friend and after a brief introduction she hands the phone to you.

"Hey, Miranda. Wheh. I'm sorry, I'm nervous here. Let me say what I need to say, okay? You can tell me to go to hell after that if you want.

I owe you an apology, no, I owe you an explanation. I think you're terrific. I've liked you since before you moved away, when you moved back even prettier than before it seemed like a miracle, or fate, or something.

I was afraid to ask you out, why would you like me back? I...don't regret asking you out, no matter the circumstances. I regret that I had to be **** to do it. But you were right about not giving an answer right away.

Nicole has been my best friend since kindergarten. She pretty much knows everything about me. Even the things I wish no one knew, even the things I wish weren't true, and she loves me anyway. She wants me still.

I think I knew this but I was too afraid to admit it. I was scared of ruining that relationship, of her not being a part of my life, but I realized I had to stop being a coward last night.

So I'm sorry if my behaviour last night made you feel like you weren't special, if my behaviour hurt you, I just found my special someone in kindergarten. It just took me that long to figure it out. Maybe we can be friends, I'd like that.

There, I'm done."

There is a pause and then in a small boice you hear Miranda say over the phone "I think I would have said yes," and then you hear the click of the phone call ending.