You feel unsettled.

Something strange is occurring to you and it makes you feel worried.

When Carrie said she had the resources and contacts to actually become your legal mother, you decide to go along with it despite some uncertainty in how it would play out. Now that most of the proceedings have finished, you have one legal document that would change your life.

Sitting on your living room couch with Carrie beside you, she rubs your back comfortingly and waits patiently while you furrow your brows. She has already signed her half of the papers to be recognized as your mother.

Across from you and your girlfriend is a lawyer who smiles professionally, clearly knowing of the adoption but doesn't make any visible discomfort. Rather than that, he is rather calm about this which makes you wonder exactly how Carrie was able to hire him and get him to represent you and Carrie in the various proceedings. Since you've met him, you thought it might turn out awkward, but he never once questioned why you were going through the adoption to your girlfriend. In fact, Carrie even kissed you once in front of him, making it known how your relationship would develop even when you become a son to this woman.

You would have never thought that a court would grant such an impossible relationship and yet, here you are. Now that it's come to this, you are taking this sort of signing with serious rethinking.

At first, you thought this could be nothing more than playful roleplaying with your girlfriend but since the past few days, things have been feeling...different. When she calls out to you sweetly, you've had a rising urge to refer to her as..."mommy".

It's one thing to be aware of it and intentionally roleplay, but when it feels more and more natural to think of her as your mother, it makes this signing even more unsettling for you.

'What's wrong with me?' you think staring blankly at the paper, 'Isn't this what I want?'

"Is something wrong, Sweetie?" Carrie finally asks.

You flinch and your chest tightens. She's been addressing you with all sorts of endearing terms...sweetie, baby, son. Regardless of how she does it, it makes you increasingly aware that she hasn't once broken away from the growing maternal aura that envelops her. Every time you nurse from her chest which is beginning to produce sweet warm milk for you as she takes her supplements, it seems to grow and leak out to you, making you feel fuzzy and protected.

Something is off though. You can't place a finger on it, but it feels too natural to be true. You would think you'd have more control over how you'd see her and think but it's becoming increasingly difficult around her. Sometimes, you try to **** yourself to think of your real mother and not lose yourself over who you truly are, but at times, you have doubts.

"I'm...fine, mom-"

You stop yourself short as you try to reassure your girlfriend. Once again, you were about to refer to her as your mother without a second thought. Especially in front of a stranger, you thought that you'd feel more self-conscious.

Carrie smiles a little and continues rubbing your back. "It's fine, right? You can call me Mommy anytime. Just making this legal makes it sweeter. Are you having doubts now?"

"I..." you breathe a little, curling your lips, "...I'm not sure."

The lawyer clears his throat. "I know this is a big step, but it'll be a waste of the time and money involved in this whole process if you back out now."

You are disconnected from how much effort when into the proceedings, but you imagine it might be a slap in the face to Carrie's efforts if you back out now.