Another note

I want to say first of all, thanks to all the supportive comments. They mean the world to me. I am out as I can be in real life, with a great support system and am about as lucky as a trans woman can get. I didn't even consider it a coming out, because my work is so obviously trans now and it's in my profile. So I really appreciate all the well wishes and support, especially because I only mentioned it to contrast the reality of my gender with the fantasy of sissies.

And then I got comments that sissy fans are disappointed. Or suggesting that everything here is fictional and therefore shouldn't be taken seriously. At first I did that thing women do where I tried to apologize while explaining, or ignore it and try to focus on the positive.

I don't owe you an apology. If anything, you owe me one. Your kinks fetishize, among other toxic things, my dysphoria. I felt a lot of shame in my sissy fantasies because I was worried I was doing the same. But go back and read these stories through a trans lens and you'll see I was fetishizing misogyny because that's what women are trained to do. Yes, it is different. It is inherently different.

Do you know how awful it was for me get told you didn't like when my sissies don't have big dicks to fuck with? I don't have a big dick and I love that for me. Some trans girls do. Some even like to fuck with them. A very large number of us feel disgust and dysphoria at the thought of it. Porn caters to straight and cis men because you pay for it. So you have this distorted view of 'shemales' 'sissies' 'dickgirls' and 'futanari'. It's not real, but it does have a real impact.

The impact prevents trans women like me from seeing their true selves and paints us as both predator and prey, marking us for danger and literally fueling the trans panic defense that can reduce the culpability of someone that murders a trans person.

By the way, it shouldn't have to be brave for me to come out or live out. If you aren't trans, and you congratulated me for being brave, you are saying that you know transphobia makes the world dangerous for me. So...what are you going to do about it? We can't do this on our own. We are vastly outnumbered and targeted by the wealthy and powerful. You have to do something. Children are literally dying because you care more about debate culture on a topic where all the science has already resolved the 'trans question' and you act like our lives in an interesting topic to challenge.

Fuck that and fuck you. I am so fucking exhausted of pretending you are my allies just because you are happy for me and don't actively discriminate against me. If you aren't anti transmisogyny and actively combating it you are not my ally. You are the bigot's ally.

This is a negative note. I expect some notes on tone. I might get in trouble for it. I hope not. I love the trans women and enbys and queers I have found on here and I want more readers to discover themselves through my stories. But I also can't allow these comments to continue undocumented on. Otherwise it is like I am giving my blessing to it. I cannot.

Maybe you didn't know better. I get that. If that's the case. I hope you can learn from it. Maybe you will help us from now on. I'd like that. I am all about learning and grace.

For all the eggs reading this: I love you. If you end up discovering you are just a cis with pervy porn habits, I still love you. I bet there's more than a few of you that are gonna hatch into beautiful chicks. We will wait for you...