Take a look back, to move forward

“So, Sue,” a soft voice spoke behind Sue and she turned around again. “I hope you like my shape?”

The woman was the only one Sue met that had real clothes on, even though they were really short. Her hot-pants showed off the hips and her toned skin, the silky top she wore showed her white bra. Her breasts weren’t extraordinary big, but they fit her petite body very good. The dirty blonde hair was curly and fell on her shoulders like a waterfall and her face smiled at Sue very knowingly. Her dark eyes, sharpened through her make-up made Sue think this woman looked not just at her outer appearance, but also at her soul.

Sue opened her mouth in surprise as she saw the woman. She knew her. But Sue had seen so many naked women in the last month that she couldn’t remember immediately where she knew this woman from. Something about this vision made Sue's heart jump a bit and she was confused about it.

“I see you recognize me,” the woman smiled.

“Ehm…” Sue made, still unsure where she knew this woman. It was not a member in the staff of the mansion, that was for sure. “I…don’t know. You are familiar, but I don’t remember…”

“Should I give you a hint?” the woman asked and looked at Sue very kindly…almost proudly.

“It would be nice,” Sue agreed frowning.

The next thing she felt was that she fell backwards into something soft and warm. She looked around and opened her mouth aghast as she saw around. She was lying in her bed.

Her bed, not in the mansion, the bed in her old home.

The mist around her was gone, instead she was lying on her bed, the sheets exactly like she remembered them. From the next room came loud music…Jess listened music. Sue stared at the wall and couldn’t believe her ears as she heard her mother shout, muffled through the door, but definitely her mother: “Sweetie! It’s 11pm. Your dad and I need to get to work early in the morning. If you won't be quiet, I’ll reconsider this trip to the lake again!”

“Sorry!” Sue heard Jess' annoyed voice and the music got quieter, even though Sue still heard the bass drumming. Sue sat up on her bed, even though she didn’t even want to, and looked around. Sue noticed she wore a shirt and pants and then she scratched her breasts, again, not wanting to do at the first place. She noticed that they were not small, but definitely not as busty as Sue was used to being. She wanted to move a bit to get to the mirror in the bathroom, to look at herself, but she couldn’t do anything her mind wanted to do. Instead, she noticed something different: her skin wasn’t purple anymore. Immediately she recognized that something on her spine was missing: her tail was gone too. Sue needed a moment to understand what was going on as she heard someone knocking on the door.

“Sleep well, Sue,” she heard the soft voice of her mother. “See you tomorrow. Rebecca still didn’t show up?”

“No,” Sue heard herself say even she didn’t wanted to talk in the first place. “I wrote her, but she is with her boyfriend in the city. I guess, she's staying there and we will meet her tomorrow.”

“Ok then. Good night.”

“Good night, mum.”

Sue wanted to open her mouth as she understood what she was seeing, but she couldn’t. She understood what she was witnessing: she had lived this moment already, she couldn’t do anything, because she was living her own memory again, a very ordinary evening.

It was the evening before she and Jess went to the train-station. The evening before their lives changed forever. The evening before their infection and transformation.

Sue felt that she cuddled into her soft pillows. She grabbed her phone and felt a sudden nervousness. Her messages to Rebecca were unanswered an hour ago. Strange.

No, not strange, Sue knew what must have happened, her friend got infected and fucked in the city now. But the Sue who was lying on her bed didn’t know. She couldn’t think of any of the things that would happen to her. She just wanted to sleep because she has to go to college tomorrow…

But not now. Sue saw how her finger tapped a few messages to Mira and Rebecca the other hand slipped as a matter of course into her pants…

Sue moaned softly as she touched her clit, slowly getting aroused. She teased her clit with one finger and lay back relaxed. After Mira wished her a goodnight too, she closed the chat and opened her browser on the phone. Sue moaned softly as she searched a very distinctive site, her thumb tipping in the letters very slowly. If she used her other hand it would be way faster, but Sue couldn’t get her hands off her moistening pussy…it just felt too fucking good, when she touched herself.

She found the site she was looking for and searched for videos immediately. She did this so often, her hands found the letters almost automatically as she tapped in the words. The first video already was good enough. Sue just needed a bit of her favourite actress to get off.

Sue let out a soft moan as she rubbed her clit much faster now. The women in the video kissed each other softly and Sue closed her eyes shortly, biting her lower lip. How much she longed for something like that…

The women in the video started to make out more fiercely and Sue followed their movements. As one of them, the blonde woman who got licked by the brunette, started to moan and roll her eyes to the air, Sue was so close to the edge too and she bit her lower lip just like the blonde woman in the video.

With a sharp gasp, Sue came and her legs trembled, her finger clenched into her pussy while the glorious shocks of her orgasm surged through her body. After she came down from her peak, she scrolled the video to the finale, her hand massaging her wet clit softly. The blonde woman and the brunette kissed each other as both of them came too and the video faded to black after that. Sue paused it and wind back the video to the point where the blonde woman came the first time. She watched how the eyes of the woman rolled back and her hands clenched in the sheets of the couch, shuddering because of her orgasm…

How much Sue wished to have someone who made her feel this way. How much she longed for someone to fuck…someone to love…

She sighed and turned off her phone, then she turned to the side and closed her eyes.

“Do you know now?” a voice whispered behind her.

Sue turned around and saw in the eyes of the woman from the video. She was lying in the darkness back again and the fog around her was there again. She sensed also that her tail was back again that she felt horny and ready to cum again…she was back in present. And behind her was lying the woman she watched so often in the net, if she wants to get off. One of them. A porn-star with the preference to do lesbian-stuff she just liked.

“I…” Sue said, her voice very confused. She sat up and stared in the blue eyes, she adored so much from her past life. “You are not her…but...who are you…?”

“Guess,” the woman said and stroked softly Sue’s silky black hair. “You don't have to worry that something will happen if you guess wrong.”

Sue stared at the woman and thought about it.

“You are my turn-on,” Sue said, but this time, it wasn’t only half as determined as before when she called her other emotions.

“Partly,” the blonde woman said and nodded. “You got off to this body very often, right? But I am more than just this woman in the porn industry.”

“Desire?” Sue guessed the second time still not quite sure. “But then…no, I met Desire before…”

“Partly,” the woman repeated. “Try bigger scales.”

“My…dreams?” Sue asked after a short pause.

“Very good. What dream exactly?” the blonde woman asked and looked deep into Sue’s purple eyes, nodding encouragingly.

Sue hesitated. Then she spoke it out and she felt that tears getting in her eyes. She didn't know why, she hadn't cried for months. But something about this woman triggered old fears and worries. “My dream to find a girlfriend. The fact that I am a lesbian, which I didn’t tell anyone," Sue said very roughly. "You are my greatest desire, before I found Cassie. You are my…” her words drowned as the blonde woman smiled and she finished the sentence as Sue couldn’t spell it out herself.

“Your wish,” the blonde woman said. “Your old wish of having a girlfriend. Your old fear, what your parents would say if they saw you masturbating. Your old fear what they would say if you came home with a woman one day and not with a man. I am your heart's greatest wish. A wish you finally got fulfilled, by the way. I am so proud of you.”

Sue didn’t respond. She was too overwhelmed with everything right now. She felt that a tear ran down her cheek. Wish smiled at Sue, just like Cassie would.

“Don’t cry, Sue,” Wish told her and kissed her forehead. “You achieved more than I could ever imagine. Time for some revelations, don’t you think? You’ve earned it.”