Shit don't get me started

Well... puberty, what can i say about it... it happened i guess - ugh, fine let's see, how was that period of my life. It was horrible that's for sure but why?

I remember that my sister fully turned her back on me, she wasn't my friend anymore and hated my guts for no reason - i'm guessing because i was too childish to hang out with her and her friends but i was 10 when she started acting like that so is like wtf...

Well, my sister hated me but that didn't affect me that much, i still had a lot of friends and i was very popular but what happened? - Oh i know now, fucking puberty.

I started puberty at an early age, i would say - the firsts signs of puberty showed up when i was 11 years old so i think i started before the average boy.

But why did puberty impacted me so much? - Hmm, i actually know the answer but i don't know why - it was my insecurity, i developed a mentality where i wasn't confident with myself and i was overthinking everything.

As i said, i don't know why i was insecure... maybe i should look at myself and point out my traits to see in which aspects i'm flawed.

Well, i... André Price was a really smart cookie, i always used to solve every problem in a matter of seconds, i kept my A+ streak intact throught all my years in school - i made a lot of friends because i was outgoing, funny and overall a person you want to be friends with.

I knew that my personality was fine, everyone loved me for who i was, a smart, friendly and funny guy - but i couldn't find the reason of my insecurity... maybe it has to do with my physical traits... my body.

Alright let's see, i have brown hair, brown eyes, i have always been above average in terms of height, i'm fit, actually more like skinny fit, i never was fat but i wasn't a skeleton either, my muscles were toned and i remember having a light 6 pack, that was sligtly noticeable - actually i still have it because i kept exercising and kept a good diet, i guess i can add to the list the fact that i have always been a healthy person, i don't have any desease or syndrome so there's that.

I think i should focus on my face, because that was like the most important part of my face, if i had an ugly face the rest didn't matter... ok let's see, i don't know if i'm attractive but i should remember what my friends used to say.

I remember a time where Annie and i were playing - i ended up tripping with something and fell in a puddle of mud or dirt, i don't know but the thing is that my face was completely covered in dirt and filthiness. Annie came to help me, she quickly turned me over and with a worried tone said "Omg Andrew, are you okay?"

I replied with difficulty because my mouth was covered in dirt "Yeah, i'm fine... but my face is ruined" - i didn't know how i looked but it was obvious that it was disgusting.

She laughed for a little bit and then cleaned my face with a towel, i opened my eyes and gave her a sad look to show my discomfort - she chuckled a bit and then said "Ohh, is okay Andrew... your face is totally fine"

I asked surprised "Really?" And she replied "Of course you silly, you are still as cute as the day you were born!" I blushed a little bit before she gave me a big hug and kissed my forehead.

After that incredible affectionate action she added "There's no way i could stop loving my cute little brother's face" and then she smiled at me.

Damn, she really did love me and cared for me when we were younger, now there was no way she would say that to me, she hates my face and probably doesn't want to see it again.

Well but that situation didn't count because she was my sister and family will always compliment your looks - although i remember one time she said something like "... you are really cute Andrew, never forget that... i would totally date you if you weren't my little brother" but it was probably a crazy thing that i made up in my head or she didn't knew what she was talking about.

So, apart from my sister, was i attractive to someone else? - i know my friends thought i got all of the girls in school but i just talked to them without really asking out anyone of them.

I remember some compliments that girls gave me like "Wow, you are really good with numbers, you must be a genius" "Stop! You are making me laugh way too much, i might piss myself if you continue making those jokes" "Thanks for the advice, you are a really good friends" and all sorts of stuff like that but it was never a compliment to my appearance.

Well except maybe that one time when a girl that had a crush on me approached me and said "Hey, i've been meaning to tell you that... you are really cute and i love when you make me laugh" - she said it while blushing and looking down, i could tell she was very nervous to say that so i thanked her and complimented her back "Thanks, i think you are cute too"

She looked at me smiling, turned around and went running back to her friends, giggling and jumping like it was the best day of her life. I think she liked me but i never made a move.

After that i talked to some girls and they said stuff like "I'm sure you'll find a girl... everyone likes you!" "I don't think you are ugly, you are really funny and i like that" "I'm surprised that you don't have a girlfriend yet" - they never explicitly said that i was cute or handsome but i knew that i wasn't ugly.

I looked at my face in the mirror and couldn't find anything that was off putting - my chin was normal, my lips were the right size, my nose wasn't that big, my eyes were fine i guessed, and my forehead was the right size so all of my proportions looked fine.

I think i do look like a baby, or a child - i didn't want to grow a mustache or beard, i didn't have chest hair and in general i wasn't a very hairy dude but you could tell that i was a teen or young adult... i don't know how to describe it but the way i looked at people, how i walked, my voice tone and attitude, it all showed the behavior of an adult - i guess it makes sense since i was very mature and started puberty early, my voice was already deep, i grew a lot, my chest was big, i was kinda tall and...

Oh maybe is... i pulled my underwear and looked down to see my soft uncircumcised... i thought about it and remembered the time i decided to measure myself to see my lenght and girth to discovered that i was packing a good 7 inch penis, it looked longer because i shaved my pubic hair, allowing a full view of my magnificent schlong. It also had over a 5 inch girth of, it was like 5.1 or 5.2, but it was above average.

Clearly my penis was just fine although when it was flaccid it reached a little over 2 inches - i was clearly a grower and i was proud of it, it was comfortable to walk with a small flaccid penis, it also helped with reducing pain in that zone, the balls still hurt if they were hit but the tip of my penis was covered in foreskin that protected it.

I cleaned it every day, knowing that is going to be useful when the time comes and i will have to shove it down a girl's hole - i also kept my pubes trimmed and my balls clear in case that someone decides to suck them without the inconvenience of having hair stuck in their mouth.

But my penis didn't matter, no one saw it when i was in middle school but i remembered giving it a lot of attention. Oh that's right... how could i forget...