My porn addiction

I discovered porn at the age of 6 when looking at some magazines that dad kept in his room. I was curious about the dozens of naked ladies that were in those pages, i always thought they had penises like i did.

I remember asking my mom a little bit about that topic but she gave me a simple childish explanation that didn't really help me. One night i tried going to my parents room because i was a bit scared of the dark, i tried going to Annie's room but i didn't want to bother her - also there was no space in her bed for the both of us but if it was bigger i wouldn't have doubt it and i would have jumped into bed with her, cuddling with her like we used to do when we were watching cartoons.

So i went to my parents bedroom and knocked once really quietly, they didn't heard me so i opened the door and to my surprise i found my dad balls deep inside my mom's pussy - i really couldn't see what was going on but i saw my dad with his back in my direction and his testicles were on top of mom's ass, he was plowing with full **** and they kept going until i said "Mom?"

They freaked out when they heard my voice, dad rolled to the side since he was in top of mom and it left me in full view of her body, she had her legs spread, exposing her recently stretched wet cunt - it felt so erotic to see her like that, she also was topless with her big breasts chilling in her chest as she was laid down.

She looked at me concerned and quickly covered herself with a pillow, dad grabbed his pants and put them on before heading to me and said "What are you doing here Andrew? Don't you see that daddy and mommy are playing over here"

I replied saying "I didn't know daddy, i'm sorry to interrupt you" - i felt like i commited a crime but then mom said with a soothing tone "Is okay honey, we were just having fun... are you having trouble sleeping?" She asked me and i nodded.

"Ohh, it's fine you can sleep with us for tonight if you are having nightmares" and so i did, i went to grab my teddy plushie from my room and came back to see my parents full dressed and ready to go to sleep. I got in the middle and got comfortable before dad turned out the lights and mom said "Goodnight sweetie, we love you"

She gave me a kiss in the forehead and we went to sleep, i cuddled with her for the entire night and then woke up feeling fresh.

Mom was really open and comfortable when she talked about sex, i learned a lot from her but i got distracted when i found out my first porn video - i was 12 and found this cool site with tons of videos like that, i clicked on the first one i saw which was a fingering video where i girl masturbated for 20 minutes, using her fingers to rub her clit, fuck her pussy and squirt like 3 times. After that video i went on a rabbit hole and the rest was history - i was watching porn for hours every day and it affected me a lot, i also learned some stuff that i would have never found out if it wasn't for the internet and soon enough i developed a porn addiction.

Apart from that porn addiction, that only made me feel a bit guilty i wasn't insecure about much. That was going to change quickly into my porn addiction.

Acne, fucking acne... it was my doom - at first it started with one or two pimples in a month, something normal to a kid my age but after masturbating daily and not taking care of myself it turned into a heavy problem that destroyed me.

Every single positive thing that was going for me - my smarts, my sense of humor, even my appearance, were completely overruled by my acne problem. That was the cause of my insecurity, i couldn't show my face and i was too embarassed to even speak to people. I still had a lot of friends but with my personal problems, my insecurities, my habit of overthinking everything and my sister at home making fun of me, i couldn't make any progress - i was seeing a girl and it could have ended in something interesting but i stopped trying after seeing myself in the mirror.

I was full of self hate for 2 years, after i took some medications, i started a tratment and improved my skin care routine, it finally began to calm down a little, i was still in really bad condition but at least i had reached my peak.

So i was 14 and i started highschool, it was tough but i couldn't remember what had happened... actually i did remember but i was beggining to fall sleep so i gave up thinking for today and fell deep in my sleep.