Ralli thinks about Harley...

I like Harley, as a human knight trainee. I appreciate the amount of effort she puts in. Maybe thinking about her can excite me.

Harley is a young man, according to official records. This is obviously false. Harley is a young woman. I know I lack understanding in some areas. However, others here acknowledge that she is a woman. The reason for this deception... Harley wanted to attend the same class as her brother, I believe. Or, she needed to. I don't understand all the details.

When we first met, Harley was pretending to be a young man. I observed that she was a woman. My candor upset her. In a strange way, I believe it changed her. For a while, she seemed determined to be more masculine.

At some point... she stopped. I am not aware of why. Now, she is only confused for a man on papers for the government. She is feminine, identifies as a female, and enjoys feminine hobbies. I personally believe this also lead to her developing magic abilities. I am uncertain.

I asked Liam one time if it is safe for her to room with the men. 'Harvey would beat the hell out of us if anything happened to her,' he said. That rang true and I understood. 'Besides, she doesn't have any attraction for any guy with half a brain. I mean, she plays on the same team as us,' he said. That... I did not understand. I believe he was referring to a spirit of camaraderie.

I also know she is female because she is permitted to use the teacher's shower, separate from the males. I met her there by accident, believing I would be alone. I confirmed she was female by observing her small breasts and unshaven pubic hair. She also made a feminine cry. We are both women, so I had assumed she would not feel shame. I apologized and told her that... I probably didn't say it that clearly. I almost never can.

She became comfortable after that. If I join the shower while she's already in, she stays. She seems comfortable looking at my body. I've seen her counting my scars. I've seen her eyes follow my pendant in the shower.

While looking at that pendant in the shower, she asked me once if I was married once. I told her I wasn't. She smiled and said she was surprised. I didn't understand.

I still don't understand why she smiles when she looks at me in the shower.

... Hmm.

Humans have to close their eyes to wash their hair. Otherwise, the soap will sting their eyes. I am uninhibited in this way, even as a human. I do not have functioning eyes and can simply sense.

When she is with me and I wash my hair, I sometimes sense feverish movement. Harley tries to hide her noise, but I can still sense her.

... Ah.

Tonight, I have new insight. Thanks to the circumstances, it now seems quite possible to me that Harley masturbates when she believes I am not watching. Does she not understand I cannot see? I have a tremendous scar across my eyes. Even a human should remember.

In any case, I understand that masturbating should be a private activity, but I cannot understand why she would do it in such close proximity, while looking at-

"Wait," Ralli spoke, snapping awake with a realization. The answer had come to her. She wasn't sure if she could trust it... Then again, if it was true, dreams were useful, after all. She'd come to a new understanding she might never have while awake. "I'll have to thank Bella later. However... is there any way to use this to further our training? For the betterment of the knights? ... Or... Maybe just to make Harley happy? She is a fine young human and knight trainee. She deserves to be happy."

The knight sergeant thought for a while, but her inspiration had left her. There was still enough time to think about someone else, or she could simply turn her dreams off until morning.