Nadia's Confession

"Lev," Nadia begins. She motions to your seat at the table, so you sit down again. She takes a deep breath, seeming to steel herself.

"I need to tell you something. I never would have told you this before, but over the past two weeks, I've felt like I can trust you more. With anything. I know I've been saying that a lot today. Last night. Even now, I feel so open with you. And maybe I shouldn't tell you this, but I want to."

She pauses.

"I have a fetish. One that I never intended to act on, one I never really even truly knew I had, but recently it has become unbearable. Over the past two weeks, it has seemed to roar into the forefront of my mind, no longer controllable. With Ana, and all. So, here it is... Polygamy. It turns me on. A lot. I never really realized it, but I've always subconsciously dreamed of being in a polygamous relationship. I know you don't know this, but my grandparents were polygamists. I grew up with it. I saw my grandpa with many women, sometimes at the same time. That's why I latched on to Ana so suddenly. It felt like a new, exciting reality, a return to my youth, and it drove me wild. I've been fantasizing about it non-stop. That's what I was masturbating to, the night you found me... It's like my body is demanding it, like I have some growing lust that I have no control over. And my revitalized love for you, Lev, is feeding it."

Another pause.

"I felt your hesitation in the kitchen this morning. And I pushed through it. I am sorry for that. I should have stopped. But it was like my body was not my own - I could stop breathing as easily as I could have stopped myself in those moments. I don't want that to happen again. So, I'll leave it up to you. You've heard me. I know you like Ana. I know you love me. And I am still your wife, of course, but it boils down to this - do you want to be in a relationship, together, with her? A real one - not just sex and fucking. But a real, loving relationship between the three of us."

She waits.

Her words hit you like a pallet of bricks from three stories up. Nadia, a natural polygamist? You thought the app was causing these behaviors, but perhaps it was only allowing her to be herself last night? And that is what you want, after all - Nadia to be herself. Suddenly, your anxiety over what is happening lessens. If Nadia is truly open to it, desires it, then so do you. Does that mean the same is true for Karina and the others?

"Are you sure, Nadia? This is what you really want?" you ask.

She nods in response, her expression serious. "If Ana is open to it, then yes. I like her, Lev. I can really see us three together."

"Then yes, so long as you want this, I want it too. But... you must promise to tell me if your heart changes."

Nadia nearly tackles you from across the table. Your chair falls backward as she straddles you, and you land on the floor with a thud. "Yes, yes," she giggles, as she plants kisses across your face. "But we must talk to Ana. Together. And soon."

"Well, I'm going to see her at work."

"Can I come with you?"

"Sure, but I need to leave now," you say, until the letters are lost in Nadia's kiss.