Switching Teams

There was no question in my mind about my sexual preference, I had been attracted to women and ONLY women since around the third grade. I haven't slept with a lot of women, but I think my numbers were probably average.

There was nothing about men that turned me on, and if i am being honest, i found the idea of two dudes fucking to be disgusting.

At least that was how it used to be. These days i find myself confused. But let me start at the beginning.

I got married.

Yes, that is what started me down the path of becoming bi-curious. I fell in love with a beautiful woman and got married. We were happy. The sex was great.

Then, about five years later, it just stopped. My wife had put on a few pounds, but she was still hot. Yet, she lost all interest in sex. No, before you say it, she wasnt cheating, she just was not into it anymore. Any discussion of the topic led to a fight. I tried presents, romance, trips and anything else, and nothing would convince her to open her legs to me or anybody else.

So, as guys will so, i turned to watching porn and sniffing her dirty panties anytime i was home alone. I was hornier than ever before, and she had no interest, so i just stroked it all the time. Sometimes two or three times a day. More than once i slipped off while we had house guests over and jerked off.

Of course porn led to other things. Eventually I started using a cam2cam site, and thats when things started to change. In life i have always been something of the alpha male, expected to be the boss when i played high school sports, at work and in the bedroom. On cam sites you find yourself totally exposed, dick and balls out, stroking it while a hot 19 year-old coed or a chubby 65 year-old grandmother tells you what to do.

And to be honest, your normal taste in sexual partners goes out the window when you get addicted to caming. Having someone watching you that way is an experience most guys will never have. Girls get it all the time. Guys...unless you are a model or celebrity, you just dont know about women walking around wanting to see you naked. There is something fulfilling about blowing a load with a horny audience.

I guess my bisexual introduction came from this 19 year old who said she went to the University of Washington (I was 35 at the time). She was a little plump, but she had amazing breasts. I was almost done when she told me to stand up and show her my ass, which of course i did. Then she told me to find something and shove it up my ass. She promised if i did, she would show me her pussy.

Normally i would have said fuck no, but when you balls are locked and loaded and ready to blow, you will do a lot of things you normally wouldn't do. The only thing within reach was my wife hairbrush, so i grabbed it and slowly shoved it up my asshole.

If youve never done it, you are gonna think its painful, and yeah, for a moment it is. But afterwards, the feeling is amazing. I finished myself off while she watched, and that became a thing i did.

Slowly i worked my way from the hairbrush, which my wife still uses everyday, to her largely unused vibrator. I also started getting more requests from men, which i ignored...at first.

Finally i accidentally clicked accept rather than ignore, and there on my screen was a massive cock. At least 12 inches. I thought, what the hell and decided to go with it.

I thought cam2cam was exciting, but watching another man...a man with a massive cock...jerk off while imagining he was balls deep inside me was life changing. I've never had anyone lust after me that way. I became an almost exclusively gay camer.

Now i find myself wanting to know what it really feels like. I love my wife and dont really want to cheat, but i am to know what it feels like to have another man to shove his big throbbing cock in my back door. What it feels like when he blows a load deep inside me.

But what can I do? What should I do?