My step-brother said "He's just here to watch"

When my mum told me that my step-brother was coming back from the US to visit us in China for a week, I became really nervous. What he did to me two months prior was crazy and I kept reliving those moments in my head over and over. The embarrassment and humiliation are still alive and well in me, even now, as I write this. Not only did he finger me, turned me into his toy also. Yet what hurts the most is that he made me like it, long for it, even. I can’t understand for the life of me what button he pressed or how he was able to do to my body what he did. After finding him on Instagram and seeing his stories, I learned that he is quite popular among girls in his college. If he does to them what he did to me, I can see why that may be the case.

Anyways. When he visited again, I initially made some resistance. I tried to have a serious conversation with him and tell him that what he did to me was wrong and that it could not—would not—happen again.

“Let’s put what happened last time behind us, okay?”

“Old sister, are you asking me? It would seem that your subconscious mind liked the game we played”

“The game *you* played, I was the toy you played with”

“You’re right, but did my toy enjoy the game?”

“…”

I was struggling to even make eye contact with him. It was clear that my body was reacting to him in a much different way than my mind did. We were in my room and he pushed me to bed. I said “No”, but my eyes must have said “Please”. Deep inside, maybe I wanted it to happen. I submitted to him again. He touched me everywhere, stripped me of my clothes. Things escalated rapidly. Eventually, my younger step-brother penetrated me. I was his first. The day he penetrated me, due to his age, and perhaps the excitement, he continued getting hard throughout the day. He had me maybe 5-6 times that day. Before bed, I almost felt like my stomach was bulging by all the life fluid that was put in me that day. In the morning he was already gone when I woke up, I took the pill of course, and kept feeling cramps. My pussy leaked cum the whole morning.

“Hi sister!”

“Hi brother…Be gentle this time”

He visited often in that time period, maybe once every fortnight. He would come to my room and there wouldn’t even be actual dialogue. I was his, now. I must admit, I was enjoying his attentions, his energy, his libido, and the way he fucked me was good too. The size difference is also something I have always found hot since the beginning. I am five years older than him, a very tall girl, he has just turned 18, short, thin, small. Watching this small, strong boy, control me, overpower me, and use me, turned me on. It was like stepping into another dimension. Being mercilessly fucked so many times by a boy, made me feel like an object, a thing devoid of agency, or power, or responsibility of any kind. Surely a woman that’s older than him, as tall as me, and one that used to bully him in the past, should be able to defend herself, but no. I would simply let my little brother use me to get empty, I was his personal Chinese sex toy.

Over time, I started to catch feelings, he felt more and more like a boyfriend to me. I got used to being in his control and found a new sense of happiness in being with him. Then, one day, everything changed. He came home with a friend, Asian, thin and nerdy. He was wearing glasses.

“Hi, who is he?”

“Don’t worry older sister, he’s my Chinese friend. We met here in China last year. We play video-games together”

“Oh, Okay”

Then he kissed me. I believe that it was the first time for him to kiss me “in public”, and it reinforced in me the idea that I was now his “official girlfriend”. However, the kiss lasted a bit longer than I was comfortable with so, at one point, I pushed back.

“Hey, what are you doing? He’s here!”

“Oh, I am sorry, sister. Go to your room and wait for me there”

He comes to my room and we start making out. After a minute or so, my top is already on the floor and his hands are all over me. His lips are so soft and his tongue twists inside mine with great energy. I am fully immersed in this moment, when I open my eyes quickly and…his friend is peaking through the door! Looking at us!

“He’s here!”

“Don’t worry sister, he’s never had a girlfriend, he asked me if I could let him have a quick look, from outside the room, just ignore him”

I am a little upset, but we start kissing again and I quickly forget his friend. As we kiss, my brother slowly runs his hand down my back, on my ass and starts squeezing it. Suddenly it feels itchy, and as I open my eyes quickly I see his friend again, perched quietly on the corner of the bed, watching like a spectator at a cinema. And I can see he’s hard too! I look at my brother and he looks at me. Then he starts kissing me again and by this point I am quite turned on so I let it slide and focus on the kiss. My brother puts his hands under my shorts, grabbing my naked ass and using my cheeks like stress balls. Then, things took an unexpected turn. His friend grabbed my waist from behind.

“Hey, what are you doing?”

“Don’t worry sister, he’s just never experienced something like this, there’s no harm. In fact, it may even be more fun. Will you be a good girl and obey me?”

I didn’t know what to say, and frankly I was so turned on that I didn’t even wanna think too much. I wanted to get back at it as soon as possible. My brother quickly kisses me, his hands grabbing my butt cheeks firmly. His friend is now very close to me and his hands are touching me and grabbing my waist from behind, he is running his hands up and down my thin waist, as if he’d never touched the body of a woman before. I had no idea how fast things would escalate from then. My little brother pulls my top up, exposing my small breasts completely. He grabs them and kisses them, one at a time, then he runs his thin cold hand down my belly, down to my pelvis, under my shorts, and inside my panties. I instantly get wet and my legs start shaking. He starts going up and down with his hand, slowly, to make me spread my legs so that his full hand can fit in between. Then he puts his hand, cup-shaped, on my pussy as to cover it. Meanwhile his friend keeps massaging my belly, and his hands almost touch my breasts. I don’t say anything as it’d be awkward to do so, plus he was not actually touching my breasts. He was testing the limit to see how far he could take it, and I was in no state to make resistance or stop whatever was happening…

Suddenly my brother puts his index finger on my wet pussy. I can feel the pressure of his finger against my lips. Electricity goes through my body and I start breathing heavily. I look up and I see he’s smiling. I know what it means, so I close my eyes and…in he goes. He gently pushes his finger inside me and my lips stretch and wrap around his glorious finger. I am gasping for air. He pulls his finger back out, licks it, then goes down on me again, this time with two fingers. My Chinese pussy lips stretch once again and wrap tight around his fingers. He fingers me mercilessly and I completely lose control, almost to the point of dropping down on the floor. As I am getting dominated down there completely, the other boy, behind me, decides to move his hands further up and massage my breasts. I don’t even know this guy, I can’t really see him as he’s behind me, and at this point, he’s literally playing and massaging my pale small breasts as if I were his wife, or the first woman he ever touched, or both. It’s over. I now let go of any fear. I stop pretending I don’t know what’s happening, and fully embrace my role in this.

Being worked on by two guys at the same time was magic. My little brother fingering my tiny pussy and his friend, with his hands all over me, massaging my small breasts. I start moaning, like a little girl. This is not an unimportant detail, as men like hearing a girl moan. When a girl starts moaning it’s a sign that she’s been totally defeated and conquered. This gave the guys more confidence. When the young boy behind me put a finger inside my mouth, I started licking it automatically, and after a few seconds I came…very…loudly.

My brother pulled his fingers out, off my panties and licked off all the juice. Shortly after we were in bed, I was face up, they had me suck my brother’s friend’s cock. My brother was holding my skinny long Chinese legs spread, up in the air, penetrating my tiny pussy with his big cock. I could feel my pussy lips stretch out to their limit, I was about to get colonised. He knows me well, so he licked my tits while fucking me, and every time I was about to cum, he’d put his thumb up my ass, making me moan and scream like a stupid whore. His friend knew by now that he could do anything to me, so he took full advantage of that situation. He face-fucked me. He would sometimes stop and make out with me for a minute or so, then spit in me and make me swallow, then he would stick his dick inside my mouth again. I swallowed everything, like a good girl.

That was the first threesome I ever experienced. I felt exhausted afterwards but also quite happy. We spent the rest of the evening in bed, all three, naked, talking, laughing, watching a movie.. About half way through the movie, my brother got hard again, and bred me again, his friend got hard watching us, and my brother, surprisingly, let him have a go too, afterwards.

I don’t know if my brother enjoyed it as much as he thought he would. I think he’s been avoiding me because he’s ashamed, or something like that. He hasn’t spoken to me since (it’s been nearly a year) and I haven’t seen him in a while. Today I wonder, how much of what happened still affects me today. How much of what I do, and my life choices besides uni, such as chatting with guys online, OF, etc are merely just consequences of that experience.

I, of course, still love my brother.

SM