You agree for now. But things get awkward later when you try to come on to her

You weren't happy with having to immediately assume the role of 'son' in your own home, but you really didn't have any other choice. You reluctantly settled into your new room, spending some more time trying to familiarize yourself with Jonas' life.

The next week was rough for you. You had to pretend to be a teenage boy constantly. Acting like you didn't know Pam's mother and sister was difficult for you, but they just assumed it was the normal awkwardness of a teenager meeting his new foster family. They welcomed you with open arms, practically smothering you with attention, leaving you no time for you to be alone with Pam.

There was also the strangeness of attending your own funeral. You could tell that Pam didn't have to fake her pain - in a very real way she had lost her husband. You longed to comfort her but, with family and friends always around, you couldn't do very much. Finally you couldn't wait any longer. Late that night after the funeral, you crept back into Pam's bedroom to see her. You opened the door and slipped in, closing it quietly behind you.

Pam was sitting on the edge of the bed, wearing a modest blue nightgown and looking through a picture album. You weren't surprised that she was still awake, but you weren't sure what she was doing.

"Pam?" you asked softly. "Are you okay?" You walked over to the bed and sat down, putting your arm around her.

She turned to look at you, her eyes red from crying. "It's all changed, hasn't it?" she said. "I mean, I'm glad you're alive - but nothing will be like before."

You pulled her close to you, hugging her. "Shh, it's okay..." you said, trying to comfort her. "We're still together. Nothing else matters, right? We can deal with everything else."

You began kissing her, first on the neck, then her cheek, and finally her mouth. She closed her eyes and responded, seeming **** for the solace of your touch. You longed to provide her that comfort, having missed her companionship. You also felt your body respond, your young hormones immediately kicking into high gear.

But this was also somewhat strange for you. The difference in your size made things feel a little off - before you had to bend your head down to kiss Pam but now you were around the same height. And you couldn't enfold her in your arms the way you used to. Her skin felt different when you touched her, and the sensations from her kiss were strange.

Then you got a burst of incredible lust and shyness at the same time. It was almost like you had never done this before. Even weirder, you started to feel intimidated by Pam - you were suddenly aware of this attractive older woman's sexuality and weren't sure how to respond.

1. Pam takes charge as this becomes a confusing but electric experience for you. *

2. Pam gently pushes you off, saying that it's too soon - like cheating on Steve.