Tell Shirou the truth

Sakura arrived outside of the Emiya household. The time had come to tell Shirou everything.

That she was a master.

What her family did to her.

What she did with the notebook.

She was still anxious about telling him all of those things, but as she thought about it, the last one was weighing on her more because she had used the notebook on him. He would have every right to be angry at her. She was afraid that this might destroy their relationship, and she didn't know how she could fix it. Well, she had one idea of how to apologize.

Walking forward, Sakura opened the front door of the house and stepped in.

"I'm back," Sakura said as she entered the living room. Her head was low after thinking about what she did to Shirou.

"Welcome home, Sakura," Shirou said, poking his head out from the kitchen. Saber was sitting at the table in the living room. She briefly turned to look as Sakura entered.

Sakura stepped into the living, then stopped. She placed the baggage she was carrying on the ground.

"Sempai, there is something I need to talk to you about," Sakura said with her head still hanging low.

"What is it?" Shirou as he stepped out from the kitchen and turned to face her. He looked a little puzzled as to what the matter was.

Sakura raised her left hand, with the back facing outward. As it became level with her face, her command seals appeared. She raised her head and looked directly into Shirou's eyes. "I'm a Master."

Saber reacted fast. Her armor appeared over her clothes instantly, she stood up and readied her sword. She jumped to position herself between Sakura and her master. Shirou's eyes widened and jaw dropped at the revelation.

Next to Sakura, Rider materialized, her weapons in hand. Saber reacted by readying herself to attack.

"We're not here to fight," Sakura exclaimed as she lowered her hand.

"Saber," Sakura said as she looked at the servant. "If during our talk, you believe I am a threat to sempai, please kill me."

"Sakura! What!" Shirou exclaimed on hearing that. Saber's eyes widened in surprise before she composed herself.

"You've always been good to me, sempai," Sakura began. "So, I don't want you to suffer because of me."

"I understand," Saber replied.

Sakura and Rider sat down at the table across from Shirou and Saber.

"When did you become a master?" Saber inquired.

"It's a bit complicated," Sakura began.

"The Matou family was one of the three families that began the Holy Grail War. A Matou has been in every one of the wars."

"But why were you made the master for the Matou family?" Shirou asked. "Why wasn't Shinji the master?"

"Because he can't," Sakura explained. "The Matou bloodline stopped producing mages a long time ago."

"But then how are you able to do it?" Shirou asked.

Sakura looked down slightly. "Because I'm not a Matou by blood."

"Ten years ago, my family gave me to the Matou family to help them restore their line." As Sakura said this, she was becoming visibly emotional. "An...and during those ten years..." Sakura stuttered as she tried to continue. She started to hunch over as the memories of what happened returned to her.

Rider reached over and put her hand on Sakura's shoulder. "It's ok, Sakura," Rider comforted her. Sakura took a deep breath and after a moment continued.

"The Matou training... involved throwing me into a pit of worms for days on end."

Shirou and Saber were aghast. But it wasn't over.

"They put some... in my body," Sakura said before pausing to take another breathe. "Them made me... want...it."

It took a moment before Shirou realized what she meant, but Sakura continued.

"And Shinji...he...he..." Sakura struggled for a moment before finding her resolve. "He **** me! Many times! And I couldn't help but want it because of those damn worms they put in my body!"

Shirou's hands clenched with anger. "Shinji," he cursed on his breath.

Sakura took another breath and calmed down. There was just one more thing she had to tell them. "But last night, that changed."

Reaching slowly into he bag, Sakura pulled out the notebook and placed it on the table. "Last night, I found this when I was walking home," she said as she slide the notebook towards Shirou. Shirou turned the notebook and saw the unusual title. Next to him, Saber could not sense anything magical about the notebook, but she got a feeling from it that it was not ordinary.

Shirou opened the book and stared at what was written inside it. "What the..." he muttered as he looked at the rules.

"Turn to the next page, sempai," Sakura asked quietly, bracing herself for what was to come.

Shirou complied and the first thing he saw was:

Shirou Emiya will hurry to find Sakura and invite her to stay at his house for the night. Once there, he will offer to let her sleep in his room. He will be happy to engage in any sexual activities Sakura suggests.

Shirou was stunned. That's what happened last night, he thought as he realized this notebook might be capable of doing what it advertised.

"I'm so sorry," Sakura cried. Looking up, Shirou saw that Sakura was visibly crying. Tears gently streamed from her eyes as she looked down to avoid Shirou's gaze.

"I...I didn't think it would work," she sobbed.

"Sakura..." Shirou began before he was interrupted. Sakura slide a pencil across the table to Shirou.

"Y...you can use it on me," she said, still crying a bit. "It's only right! I shouldn't have made you do something like that!"

Lifting her head, she looked directly into Shirou's eyes. "You can even make me into your sex **** if you want! I don't deserve to be your girlfriend after what I did to you!"