Restoring the playing field

Today was Saturday. So I just wanted to rest.

I was chewed out for almost the entire day yesterday by my psychotic bitch of a mother. Of course that was Lindsey's plan all along.

Luckily Mom would be away for today. Tom was still here tough...

My phone rang and I answered right away. Of course it was Cow.

“You have my permission to breathe.”

“Ah....” It's the weekend, and my permission lasts for one week, so there was really no reason for this.

“I want to meet up with you in 30 Minutes, the usual place.”

“P-please”, I pleaded. “Just let me rest today..i'm...i'm at my limit.”

There was silent for a for a few seconds. “No dice. Also take a shower.”

“Huh?”

“You didn't get to shower yesterday because you fainted. It's ok. If your brother complains tell him you have my permission.”

“Um...ok...”

“Don't be late.”

And just like that Cow hang up.

I really did not want to see her today. But it looks like that was a luxury that wasn't allowed. Cow sometimes had these periods where she was almost nice to me. But that was all an act, to make me let my guard down so that she could **** me even more...or is it? Ugh, ever since I fainted yesterday my head is in such a mess.

I took my shower and headed out to the usual cafe. Cow was already waiting there, alone.

“Take a seat”, she prompted and I did. I remained silent, dreading what she had planned for me today.

“I am not sure, if you are aware, but you won yesterday.”

“I...won?”

Cow nodded. “You completely blindsided me with your malicious compliance and I did something I shouldn't have. I cheated, so to speak. You probably figured it out already, but I did something to your mind. I take that order back now.”

It was like a huge fog cleared from my mind. “Ha!” I exhaled deeply. “W-what was that?”

“You don't need to know that. Just know that I will never mess with your mind again, well, not via an order anyway.”

I was completely and utterly confused. “After all you did to me... this was the thing you thought got to far?”

“Yes.”

I had to laugh. I probably shouldn't, but it was just too funny. “Why?”, I had to ask.

“You don't need to know that either. I messed up yesterday. That is all.”

“Fine” I said ordering a small cake and coffee from the menu. “So, what have you planned for me, today?”

“Nothing”, Cow replied. “I brought you here to grant you a small boon. To make things even again.”

“A boon?”, I asked, raising an eyebrow.

“I let you cancel an existing order.”

I looked at here in complete astonishment. “Are you serious?”

“Yes.”

“You won't just simply reapply the order right away?”

“I won't. Once removed that one stays away for good. No wordplay either. ”

This was huge!

So many possibilities raced trough my mind. I could finally shower again! Or stop stuffing myself that much. But really,thinking clearly, it had to be that one. “Please remove the breathing thing.”

Cow looked pleased at my decision. “I suppose that one felt like the sword of Damocles, but more important it is my most vital insurance. Very well, you no longer need my permission to breathe.”

Even tough there was no change I felt a huge weight lifted from me. “Thank you...really I mean it.”

Cow only chuckled at that.

Isn't this situation, extremely favorable? We are almost having a normal conversation here. Maybe, I should try pushing forward? If I manage to get on Cow's good side...

“I know what you are thinking. Forget it.”

I flinched.

Cow calmly sipped a bit of her coffee. “Don't get me wrong. This wasn't for your sake, it was for mine. I needed to even the playing field, this was purely for my own satisfaction.”

“Even the playing field?” What the hell was Cow even talking about.

“For our game.” Cow explained. “You have to break free of my hold of you before a year has passed. If you do, it's your win, otherwise mine. For the record, today is Day 19.”

“I don't remember ever agreeing to this game”, I said annoyed.

“Want me to make you?”, Cow chuckled. “Still, I hope you can at least appreciate that I keep things fair.”

“ You can literally control me! How can this be considered fair?”

“Yes”, Cow replied with a smile. “I have the overwhelming advantage in this. Meanwhile you have to fight an uphill battle with only a tiny sliver of a chance at victory. Still it's not zero. So If you don't want to get crushed by me, you have **** but to struggle with all your might.”

“I won't lose, I will get trough this”, I stated resolutely. “And I will pay you back.”

“That's the spirit. Now that we have things moved back to where they supposed to be, lets give you a couple more commands shall we?”

It took quite a while before our conversation was finished. That was because Cow was really determined to spin a tight web, from which I could never escape.

“You are unable to tell anyone that I control you, be it by speaking or writing, sign language or any other form of communication”

“You will try your best to come up with an excuse for any weird behavior on your part. You will dedicate your utmost to uphold your reputation.”

“If someone appears to get close to the truth of whats happening with you, you are to inform me immediately.”

“Any order that contains the phrase “From now on” is invalid."

“You are no longer able to lie to me. Anything you say to me has to be the truth.”

“Any thoughts of rebellion against me on your part must be put down by writing. You are to send a report to me per mail each evening. If you have nothing to report, send me this.”

“Written orders from me are henceforth obeyed just as if they where spoken. A written order counts as something that is send to you from my phone to yours.”

“You are not to impair your ability to receive my orders in any shape or form.”

“You require my permission to travel any further then five miles from your home.”

“Henceforth you will only be able to masturbate by thinking on how I humiliated you."

Guess I won't masturbate for a year.

But seriously, isn't that impossible? Forget a sliver of a chance this isn't even the shadow of a sliver. Some of this stuff made my groan in frustration. Why didn't I think about wearing headphones before?

No, there was one laughable tiny thing that she let me have.

“You are to send a report per mail each evening.”

There is no way Cow didn't do this on purpose. So in essence I have to think of a plan, then execute it before the day is over. I can imagine how smug Cow must be feeling about coming up with that one.

I also need to keep attention to this invalid thing. She probably just slipped that in, to give me an invalid order at one point down the road, just so Cow can say “See? You even obey me when you are not **** to!”

Beyond that...making Cow feel sorry for me seems to be the only way. But how can I accomplish that when I am only allowed to tell the truth?

And of course there was always the worst case option. But Cow made sure to really disincentivize me from not playing the game.

“Indubitably, you could always try to stay an obedient **** for a year. I did promise you to release my control over you by then. However, I have a feeling that if you really made it to that point you will beg me not to.”

I shudder thinking what Cow meant by that. Is she trying to brainwash me into actually falling in love with her? At the very least she promised to leave my mind alone, but I am very well aware that there are many ways to break someone.

I shouldn't think about it, thinking now will only **** myself to expose my plans to her.

Still,as awful as my situation was, thinking of it as a game did made things less horrible. Of course I can't let my guard down, but to know that I had a fighting chance, no matter how small, made all the difference.

For some bizarre reason, I almost felt good.