good :)

I pause for a second. "Uhh... Do you mind if I just jerk off? I'm not sure how Shar would feel..."

"Oh..." Rosa's smile suddenly fades. "If you need to go, I understand."

"No no, she'd be fine if I do so. At least I think..."

As I think about my current predicament, I start to feel my erection subside. The heat of the moment had been cooled off by cold logic. I didn't know if this is what I wanted or not. To be a whore for other women. Maybe it's what Shar wants, but I'm not sure for me.

Rosa then snaps me back to reality by saying"You okay Andrew?"

Her question hit me like a sledgehammer and caused me to stammer as I searched for an answer that I didn't really have. "I uh... I gotta go."

With that, I head for the exit, grabbing my shirt on the way. Before I can even think, I've moved a block away from Rosa's studio, my heart pounding as my brain floods with thoughts. Do I really want my relationship to be like this? Sure, I liked the attention to a degree, but I didn't want to reduce myself to being some sort of manwhore. And did Shar really enjoy this, or is there a point where she'd decide she didn't. Plus there's Rosa too. Did I just embarrass her by storming out of her studio like that? Guess the next lesson's gonna be real awkward.

Back in my dorm, I lay on my bed feeling numb. I want to just close my eyes and go to sleep, but my mind wouldn't let me. I'd only just started dating Shar and things were already getting too complicated. Is this what I want? Do I want her? Will she compromise if I ask? I try to think of the words to tell her how I feel, but the words eluded me.

Suddenly I realized that Shar had probably texted me, and she'd want a response. Sure enough, she had sent:

'how did tonight go? have fun?'

I know I should say something. Have a proper conversation with Shar, but should I do that over the phone, or should I buy myself some time and do it face to face? At least then I might find the words before meeting her.

'good :)'

Whew. With that done, I should be right for the night. That's what I thought, but whilst my head met with the pillow, my phone vibrated. Shar had sent me another text.

'well it must've been good considering how long it took for you to get back to me'

'yeah ill tell you all about it when I see u tomorrow'

'c u then :) Love u'

'love u too'

After a sigh, I put my phone down, wondering what I'll have to say for myself tomorrow...