Liz's day out and a pet's nightmare

[hey Abby, you cool if I crash]

[yeah, always Liz, something up or you just wanna hang, it has been a bit.]

[Bit of both if I'm being honest, wanna get my mind off something.]

[Well if that's what you need I'm more than happy to play, wanna top? If not, I've been meaning to break this strap in.]

[Nah, can we just hangout, don't think playing with you'd help right now]

[ouch, gonna hurt a girls ego like that]

[not how I meant it Abby]

[I assumed, just giving ya shit, guess it's GF trouble? Heard from Seb you'd been living with a sub]

[It's complicated but yeah, I think I've fucked something up]

[well shit, I'll grab some drinks and you can tell me all about it.]

[You're the best Abby, see ya soon]

Hadn't spent alot of time with anyone else for awhile, really since everything started with Kris.

It'd be good to catch up, hear whatever drama I've missed from the rest of the group.

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"Wait wait wait, you got Alice, bad bitch, fight you and God just to prove a point, Alice. To sub for you?"

"Yeah, I needed her to understand so she wouldn't hurt Kris."

"Fuck this girl must be important to you if you went through whatever hell it took to tame Alice. How the hell you do that anyway."

The shame that was on my face must have clued her in that I'd done something, broke some personal rule.

Because her own face was one of worry.

" You know how I can get when I'm protective... " I trailed off towards the end because, how do I explain this without sharing secrets or giving the wrong impression.

" You didn't force her, did you?"

"Abby! I would never!"

"Good, now what DID you do? Somethings got you looking like you just shot ol yeller."

"You know that sub, the one Seb told you I was living with?"

"Un huh."

"Her name is Kris, used to know Alice and-"

"Wait is this the same Kris that was in all those pics she sent the group, used to be some guy friend of hers?"

"Yeah... That is the girl living with me and Alice used their baggage to justify trying to break them!"

"I thought you and Seb said that was all RP?"

"No, sorta, Alice didn't know Kris could get out and Kris never tried only because of some trauma bonding BS back in the day that was more trauma than bonding. She really was going to do all kinds of horrible shit, so she could feel safe enough to have her bestie back, situation was fuck. Me and Seb covered for her against my better judgment. "

" You, what, then how, why?! "

" Kris is not normal, Alice was almost as fucked up as Kris was from what she almost did. There's like this whole codependency thing there that despite years is still an issue. "

" So you what, you thought sex would work better than therapy? "

" No, I just knew If I wanted to not have them both on suicide watch I'd have to figure something out, proper help would have taken too long. "

" Fuck, it was that bad? "

Nod*." Kris wouldn't do it herself, to tied up in belonging to other people and other shit, but I was already slowly working them through self destructive tendencies, hell when the girl was with Seb she would forget the safe word on purpose, even when i fixed that she refused to use it! And when me and Seb got good enough to know when she was fighting tapping out and stopped for her, she just blamed herself! Then would get him or others at the club to do whatever it was to her over and over, 'until the weakness was gone', fuck after the Sarah debacle, and don't fucking get me started there! I found her in the mirror repeating 'good girls are good subs, good subs are good toys, good toys don't have limits for their owner.' she was desperate to be good and had internalized that her agency would only hurt herself and others! ... so yeah, not stable there..."

"I don't even know where to start with that."

"Do you think I did?!" she didn't deserve my outburst but I was building up steam, she was a good friend and knew I wasn't directing it at her, she'd tell me off if I went too far venting, "Then while I'm doing my best to unfuck Kris, Alice happens and now I'm finding her on the top of a building reminiscing and shit, sure they used to hang out on tall places but the way she was sitting, was like she didn't care if she slipped! So now I've got these two fucks, no real insurance, me and Seb paying out of pocket for Kris' needed care already, in a place where the wait for a therapist might not see one of them survive till the appointment. "

" So... That's the problem, what was the solution? "

" Ya know, I really had hoped the first thing I tried would have worked out, and it did for a bit. Like fuck me! A three way relationship after getting them to not trigger each other wasn't going to be easy but it was doable as is, two doms, one sub that literally wears me out daily? Hell me and Alice dated for a bit. "

" So what went wrong? Sounds like perfection if you can pull it off. "

" The bitch went and pushed Kris too hard, I warned her, she did it again, so I demonstrated the danger and then made her go through sub training like the other doms already have. "

" And that made your sub put you in the dog house? "

" No what put me in the dog house was how effective Sub training was... Also how I got her to agree... And the warning signs I ignored, but come on, everything was fine, she was under control, Kris was safe! "

" Warning signs? "

" Won't tell you the details, cause not my trauma to share, let's just say between my trying to make sure she understood and both her an' Kris both sharing an aversion to tapping out? ... Something snapped. "

" What does that mean, is Alice OK, are you on my couch tonight cause she's in the ER?! "

" No! Nothing like that, I'm not proud of this, and yeah I got too focused on my goal, but I had her consent-"

"As manipulated as it seems... Did you really."

" Beginning, yes, end, yes, middle no, but by that point... Would it have been better to not try and put her back together, and if I'm doing that already, do it in a way that helps all three of us. "

" Liz... I'm not liking where this is going. "

" She's not all there when in Sub-space now, you... ah... remember Kayla? "

" Yeah... The girl we that told couldn't come back to the club unless she had consent from the rest of her system, ya know after an Alt that was not chill with kink came out mid scene... oh no... Fuck what the hell trauma did you stumble through?? "

" Something that makes me curse that small town everyday, cause I was just trying to prove a point, not fuck her up like that, hell I did worse to Steve when he sent that Sub to the ER or Rachel when she sent that switch home crying. I don't know if it counts as DID but putting her back together wouldn't take if I didn't reinforce the two versions of her."

"...Liz, is she OK, is Kris? "

" Yeah, just seeing how Alice in Sub-space acted freaked Kris out. Wants to spend time apart and figure out some stuff. Not my fault she's that way, like christ. "

" Like what way? "

" Too compliant, is the simplest way of putting it, can you imagine seeing a submissive version of Alice, then as soon as a scene starts, total submission and checking out, deep in subspace. From Alice?? "

" I could see that, it's scary though. So what, she spends time with Alice, gets chill, you three get back together and hopefully get therapy at some point? "

" I hope, she told me not to came back or call for two days"

"So two nights on my couch and I don't even get any 'thank you head', what a world."

"Sorry Abby, if you really want it, I'm down, just not in the mood ya know?"

"Yeah I get it... Feel the same way about being my plushie tonight?"

"Sure, we can cuddle."

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"How did I forget you liked bondage when you cuddle?"

"mmmmhpphmpmmm"

"Yeah yeah, I know, I'm big spoon. Sleep well you cuddle slut."

"oouu uuoo"

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Kris Pov:

Liz had just left and I had a lot to think about, thank God the fucked nature of this had my arousal blunted.

"Slave it's time for Aly to come out."

"Yes ma'am" The shift was immediate, but still she couldn't not refer to me without an honorific. "Ma'am, M-may I wear clothes?"

"Of course you may."

"Thank you ma'am." She starts getting dressed again, slowly like she's not sure of herself.

"Aly, it's just me, Risa? You don't have to talk that way with me."

"I'll try, but I worked so hard to be good an- and that was one of the rules, Slave won't be happy with me, Mistress Elizabeth will be forced to pu-punish me."

"Aly, no one is going to punish you for doing what I ask, I'm in charge remember, now come over here, lay down and talk to me."

"Yes, m-... Risa..."

"Good girl." The way she beamed at that made my heart flutter, I think I understood Seb and Liz a little better.

"Now what do you mean slave will be mad at you, aren't you Slave?"

"Yes, no. I thought so at first but they... they do things I don't always remember and if I mess up when alone they will tell Mistress Elizabeth on me if I don't confess myself. It-it's like my leash is sometimes held by another version of me... One that's better suited for what you two need. Like I'm the useless baggage they couldn't get rid of because of how fond of me you are. "

Fucking hell.