Mornings Together Again

A/N: finished writing this at 1:00 a.m. I didn't get a proofread it yet make fun of my spelling errors in the comments. I'll tidy this up when I wake up.

Kris:

I was determined that despite everything we could go back to those first few days Alice was back in my life.

Thankfully Liz let Slave Alice be Aly while we cuddled to sleep.

That was not the case when I woke Liz up with her good morning head.

Alice sat there Frozen, clearly aware but afraid to interfere the second things turned sexual while she wasn't in slave mode and without orders.

Mistress Elizabeth changed that as soon as she came down from her O.

"It's time for Aly to be put up, slave it's time to serve."

"Yes Mistress Elizabeth, I hear and Obey." Relief palpable on her face.

And like that what was left of my best friend was replaced by my girlfriend's property.

"I have a lot I need to get caught up on Slave, take care of the rest of my pets needs. Give her head until I come back, that should take the edge off."

Liz was gone a moment later.

" Alice you don't have to, I'm mostly fine, we can just lay here for a little bit. "

Silence was my answer as she went under the covers.

" Aly, come on, please just talk to me."

All she did was stop to look at me with those eyes clearly wanting to tell me that Aly wasn't here right now and slave did not have permission to speak.

She went back to teasing me on the way to the job assigned her.

She froze for a quarter of a second when getting there, which surprised me, before I remembered something important, that my fog filled brain had forgotten.

The prosthetic wasn't on yet and I didn't go to bed with a cage anymore, because I would put the prosthetic on first thing, after giving Liz her morning wake up oral and getting out of bed.

Aly hated those parts and so did I, but she only hesitated a little bit before continuing like she was ordered to, Alice would have known to stop, to talk to me, to do something besides this.

For the first time since all this started all the way back with Sebastian I actually used my safe word "Tomato kumquat", it wasn't the same as the one I had with Sebastian and never used, this one Elizabeth seemed to like more and think it'd be easier for her to pick out.

Maybe it was also because it was one Alice knew, because as soon as those words left my mouth she froze, I could feel her breath on my shame.

Not for long however because as soon as the thoughts processed through her brain and she got off of me, out of the bed, still naked but for a harness, and assumed one of her positions besides the bed, one I knew meant she was ready and waiting to be punished.

Liz:

A little more bonding would do them well, there was still plenty to work through, but a couple of really good orgasms from a slave eating you out did wonders.

That train of thought derailed when I saw in the bathroom, on a towel, freshly cleaned and ready to be worn.

Pets prosthetic and cage.

I left the bathroom like the Devil Himself was behind me hoping it wasn't too late.

It wasn't like me to make these kinds of mistakes, but if I was going to, first thing in the morning makes sense, I would need to do better if I was going to keep both of them.

The scene I found worried me.

Slave was in position 7 ready for punishment either from failing to follow through or from following through and realizing I would be upset.

Pet was laying there scared shaking trying to hug herself.

" oh baby I'm so sorry I didn't realize you didn't have it on yet, are you okay?" I try to say as I bring her into my arms and climb into the bed.

She jerks at the touch before melting into it, seems the damage isn't total.

"She stopped oh thank God she stopped, thank God she knows the safe word, I barely remembered it. She was so close, she would have done it too, it would have tore her apart and she would have done it, it would have broke me but she would have done it and she wouldn't have even known or cared she would have followed your order. She trusts your half sleepy words more than her own judgment or my pleas now. "

" Oh baby I'm so sorry, I won't- I won't do that again, I can't believe I forgot you took it off to clean it. You do it that every night but I've been gone most mornings before you put it on, I didn't remember. I'm just glad you remember the safe word."

"If I hadn't remembered she would have kept going. Even if I said a million other things to try to stop her? In- in her current state does she even know what went wrong? Does she understand why she's preparing to be punished? I know 'she wanted this', but how far did you two go, is there less of her still in there, this headspace, then with Sarah? Even at her deepest point she still understood what was happening around her, is Aly even in there right now?"

"Everything will be okay baby don't worry. "

" Liz is Aly even in there right now, or is it just Slave 'Alice'? "

She was determined to get the answers. Ones I knew she didn't actually want and would hate to hear.

I knew there was no ordering her around to avoid it however.

"It's complicated pet, do you trust me. "

"Then uncomplicated Liz, I trust you but I need you to tell me."

"huff, fine. She uh, yes she's in there but she's not in the pilot seat anymore? She will remember everything when Aly comes out to 'play bestie', but right now she's operating on a different level. One where I locked away all the things she wanted me to remove and all the things I didn't want hurting you. "

"If that's the case why keep up the punishments? The true parts of her aren't feeling it, would it even work to correct Behavior? "

"Because honestly, at this level it's not punishment or training, it's more akin to programming. "

"Programming?"

"Yes she's operating more like an 'if/when' statement with a heartbeat."

"Liz I thought you loved her too, I thought you two were best friends, how could you do this, what I did to Sarah was wrong, you weren't supposed to use it as a blueprint, to go even further, to use it on someone you really cared for?!"

"She begged me to do it, you saw those clips last night, she wanted this. She was scared of herself and frankly once we got past her issues I've never seen her enjoy something so much as when she was submitting to me."

"Can she even feel that Joy now? Or is it and the crushing weight all she can feel? And yeah I saw those clips but I also know how curated you would make those, I saw the undercurrent, I saw you building toward the breakdown. You were too good at it honestly. And that made me ask myself a question, at what point did she beg you to keep training her? How badly was she broken in that moment, how broken did you make her?"

The Silence of my response was damning.

All the while the subject of our conversation set silently waiting for me to punish her for something she didn't even understand she did wrong.

For the first time since I started training her to do all this to protect my pet, I felt doubt in my actions.

But I was in too deep and I did mean it when I said I would burn the world down to protect her, even if her world was Alice that statement still held true.

"More than I meant to, way more than I expected, but that deep, how could I refuse that begging, we stopped, I didn't push her anymore that day! I took care of her and I waited! But when we started again, it was still there and I had a choice, only one of which would see us all together, only one of which she was begging for. So I pushed, trained her, freed her of all that!"

"It seems while you were teaching me lessons on how to be a good girl I was teaching you all the bad ones."

"It's not that bad baby she's happier this way I'll bring Aly back out and she can tell you."

"No. Because I won't believe that answer, we both know you did something to her so she would never tell me something you didn't want me to hear, I know why, I understand why, I get that it was for my protection, but even for that, for you, I won't let her be torn down like this. "

" Then what pet, what do you want from me, I have worked so hard, gave so much and compromised for you, what more can I do? How can I care of you, if I can't protect you?! How do I protect you if I can't be sure of her?! Should I have just sent her away?"

"Fuucck, even if life sucked it was so much simpler when we were all pretending to be normal... okay Liz I need you to fucking go away for a day or two, and I need you to give me Alice, I need to have her, full control of both. Now or I WALK."

"wh-" Pet was shaking, like saying that and making that ultimatum extracted a deep toll, cost something precious. It probably did, she had never talked back to me like this, but it was for Alice so it tracked, I always knew that if it came done to me or her, Kris would always chose her, even if just the thought of losing me hurt, even if it fractured something priceless in her.

Its part of what I let convince me to do this to Alice.

"Nope, I don't care for whatever questions or platitudes or whatever is getting ready to come out, it's time for me to handle something, I love when you two directed me and protected me but sometimes it's my turn. That is one thing you can learn from Aly, sometimes it's okay to let puppy be the guard dog. I love you, but I need this, I need you to trust me, as much as the idea of me trusting myself Burns or anyone else trusting me burns. "

" I, ok puppy, I'll let you run the show I'll be back in 2 days. Slave Alice stand and report for orders, "

She immediately stood up and looked at me the way I trained her, she would remember this, it would ingrain.

"For the next 48 hours Kris is your acting owner, her words are my words her orders are my orders her will is my will. Do you understand? "

"Yes mistress Elizabeth I understand and obey."

"Good girl, I'll be back soon, both of you, I want you to know, I love you, I hope you understand that. "

" I love you too Liz, now please go before I snap at you again " her eyes never left Alice's face looking for anything and seeing nothing even with the emotions that should have been affecting her.

I may have done too good of a job but what else was I supposed to do, when she broke down like that in the middle of training, even more spectacularly than I could have ever imagined, and more than I ever could have engineered.

Even if I wasn't trying to make her this, I would have had to do something to build a working cognitive structure again, one that didn't just circle that pit of self-hate.

Pet was right though, I would have to trust her on this, because I could see in her eyes that if I didn't she would leave, she would rather be alone even with everything that's changed in her, it would be better then being with me if I couldn't trust her in this right now.

Slave Alice:

Aly woke up and remembered everything.

I broke down, I almost, what Liz ordered me to do, I almost...

I couldn't even think the full thought, the thought of it inside me didn't revolt me the way it used to but I still didn't want it.

The thing I was scared of the most was hurting 'Risa, I understood at this point how much she hated that part of herself.

'I would have listened to my orders over the pleas of my bestie, if the safe word hadn't stopped me, god.'

"Alice, it's okay, I know that wasn't you, come over here, hold me, we need to talk."