Lie, saying that you are a nun

You lie to them, saying that you are a nun, and you want to see the portal at least one time.

They say that you lost the purity of your soul and now you are useless, and the only way to recover their trust is to sacrifice yourself serving in the woods for a year or wash your errors working with the male cultists until they say that you are ready.

You have to choose, it's your last chance