Undecided

“I don’t think you’ve actually said what you want to do as a job once you finish school. I know I kind of just assumed you wanted to go to college when I brought up you living with me and Emma but is there something you actually have in mind?” you asked, looking a bit apologetic that you may have pressured her to take on further education when she didn’t want to.

She sat there for a minute or two while she tried to think of an answer to give you but it seemed she eventually gave up trying to make a decision and just told you the truth.

“To be honest I still haven’t really thought about it that much. You don’t have to worry about you pressuring me because I definitely want to go to college. More for the experience than whatever I’ll be studying” she replied, going back to thinking about her options.

You didn’t blame her for not thinking about it either. In your case, you did have a general idea about what you wanted to do but it was only when the KDK appeared that you thought more deeply about your own goals and how far you were willing to go to try and reach them.

“If I was in your shoes I’d just see what course they have available and see what piques your interest. You don’t have to plan with a concrete idea in mind but it's at least useful to take a look around at your options” you suggested, getting a nod from Sarah in return.

She continued to think but it seemed that she wasn’t that interested in deciding at the moment and threw the question to you.

“You might as well decide for me. I’m not gonna think of anything at the moment anyway” she said, throwing out the suggestion to you.

“I don’t think I should decide something like that for you” you replied, looking at her strangely given how important the topic was.

“Why not? In the worst case, I hate the idea and I’ll just think of something else but I think you’ll come up with a good idea. I trust you to come up with a better idea than me at least” she added, with you still feeling unsure about making that level of a decision.

You couldn’t think of anything off the top of your head anyway so you wanted to just shrug the question off and carry on with a different topic.

“I’m serious you know. I want you to decide for me” Sarah continued, looking you in the eye to confirm her sincerity.

You didn’t know why she was so adamant about you making this decision for her but you could tell that she was completely serious. Like with anything in your life recently, you had to consider if this was some effect from the KDK and you could see some correlation between the decision and her kink. If she really was ‘free-use’ then why wouldn’t that extend to more than just her body?

The topic actually made you reconsider everything the KDK had shown you so far before you even realised it. You had spent your time initially trying to prove if what the KDK was telling you was the truth, getting Sarah to jerk you off when it said you could freely use her limbs but you had never tested to see if there were passive effects that existed that the KDK had failed to mention.

This could all just be a complete waste of time but some of the events from the past few days would make a bit more sense if that was the case. Sarah had seemed to be more possessive over you when she had been talking with Emma and if she thought of herself as someone who you should be in control of, then maybe she was jealous about Emma thinking she was your equal instead of being on the same level as herself?

You wanted to shake those sorts of thoughts out of your head but now that you considered it, it was now impossible to get out of your head. With Sarah at the side of you, it seemed easy to just ask her but you found yourself needing to work up some courage before you felt confident enough to bring it up.

“Hey so… I was wondering…” you started, still hesitating to bring it up.

“Yeah?” Sarah replied, giving you a strange look at your nervousness.

“This might sound like a stupid question but… Is it just the career stuff that you are having issues deciding on or is there anything else you're having trouble with?” you asked, trying to get a feel of what she was thinking.

“Oh it's not that I’m having trouble deciding on what I want, it’s just that I think you should make the decision for me. It makes life easier for me if you do that and I don’t have to worry about choosing you know. And yeah, if you wanted to decide on other things then go for it! I just didn’t want to bother you with too many choices all at once” Sarah replied with a smile on her face, looking as if she had told you the most normal thing in the world.

You wanted to start asking her what exactly she was willing to let you control in her day to day life but you still felt there was something you were missing regarding her attitude. If it was just that she wanted you to make decisions, then the earlier disagreement with Emma wouldn’t have occurred and she would have accepted your decision without any hard feelings.

You weren’t gonna get any more ideas without asking the person in question so you considered the best way to try and get the truth out of her.

“So if you want me to make decisions for you, then why were you against the decision I made about prom?” you asked, getting a slightly confused look from Sarah.

“Of course I was annoyed! Just because I want you to make the decisions, doesn’t mean I have to be happy with all of them. I-I still want to dance with you and well Emma was…” Sarah responded, stopping herself mid-sentence.

“Emma was…?” you asked back, hoping she would continue.

Sarah looked a little guilty but now that she had already started, she knew you wouldn’t let this go without an answer and had to come clean.

“Emma was trying to settle the situation just between the two of us when we clearly needed you to come in and sort it out” Sarah huffed, now making you the one confused.

“And I had to make the decision because…” you added, waiting for Sarah to fill in the blanks.

“Well because you’re more important than us. Of course we have to ask you” Sarah stated, speaking as if it was a matter of fact that you were higher ranking than her and Emma.

The whole conversation had derailed by this point and you were left with more questions at every answer you got out of Sarah. She seemed to think there was nothing wrong with her way of thinking but something had clearly changed that you had been unaware of and you had no idea when this had first started.

You felt you needed some time to think through everything she had said so far and her new thoughts on your hierarchy would have to be put aside for a moment. Still, everything was already jumbled enough but you wanted to go back and see just what she considered ‘decision worthy’ and if there was still a line in what she was comfortable with you choosing.

“Right sorry, I should have considered you and Emma being lower than me” you started, getting a nod in agreement from Sarah that still blew your mind before you continued.

“Anyway back to the decisions. If you want me to decide some things for you then I’m just gonna throw out a few hypotheticals and see if you are okay with it. This doesn't mean I'll end up making these decisions right away but just ones that I can think of right now. Is that okay?” you asked, getting an excited look from Sarah.

“Sure! Go on quick” she urged, making you forget the logic of the situation before you ended up freaking out.