In the past - #2

I felt a mix of anticipation and nervousness as I opened the chat with "vicky998" that night. Our conversations had grown increasingly personal over the past week, and I found myself sharing more with him than I ever had with Raj. The anonymity of the online friendship made it easier for me to open up about my past, my desires, and my hidden feelings.

As I settled into bed, my phone buzzed with a new message from "vicky998."

Vicky998: "Hey Niddhi, can I ask you something personal?"

I took a deep breath before typing my reply.

"Sure, what is it?"

There was a brief pause before his response came through.

Vicky998: "Has Raj started exploring your desires by talking about intimate topics?"

My heart raced. I hesitated, feeling shy and unsure about how to answer. I had never had this kind of conversation with Raj, and the idea of discussing such intimate details made me feel ****. However, there was something about "vicky998" that made me feel safe and understood.

"No, we haven't really talked about those things. It's been more about the wedding and our future."

Vicky998: "I see. It's important to have those conversations, you know. To understand each other on all levels."

I felt a pang of guilt as I realized I had never shared the details of my past relationship with Raj. But here, with this online stranger, I felt a strange sense of comfort.

"I've never talked about my past with Raj. I guess I'm just afraid it might cause problems."

Vicky998: "Sometimes sharing can bring you closer. But only if you're comfortable."

I took another deep breath, feeling the need to unburden myself.

"There was someone before Raj. His name was Sohail. We were together for a year, but we broke up. The marriage proposal with Raj came about a year after that. Surprisingly, I have a colleague named Vicky. I was attracted to him before the marriage proposal, but I didn't act on it. Now we're just collegue who exchange pleasentries thats it."

There was a moment of silence before "vicky998" responded.

Vicky998: "Thank you for sharing that with me, Niddhi. It means a lot that you trust me."

I felt a warmth spread through my chest at his words. I had never felt so understood.

Vicky998: "Can I ask you another personal question? When was the last time you were physically intimate with someone?"

I felt my cheeks flush with heat. This was a level of intimacy I had never discussed with anyone, let alone an online friend. But there was something about "vicky998" that made me want to be honest.

"It was with Sohail. It's been more than a year."

Vicky998: "Thank you for sharing that. You know, it's okay to have desires and to want to explore them. It's a natural part of being human."

I felt a mix of curiosity and embarrassment. I had never thought much about my own desires or explored them beyond my past relationship.

Vicky998: "Have you ever thought about... self-pleasure?"

My eyes widened at the question. I had heard about it but had never really considered it for myself. I felt too innocent and inexperienced to even know where to start.

"No, I haven't. I don't really know much about it."

Vicky998: "That's okay. It's something that can be explored slowly and respectfully. It's about understanding your own body and what makes you feel good."

I felt a flutter of curiosity and nervousness. I had never thought about my own pleasure in this way before.

"I guess.... I just never thought about it."

Vicky998: "There's no rush. It's something you can explore at your own pace. Just remember, it's about what makes you feel comfortable and happy."

I felt a sense of relief wash over me. I appreciated the way "vicky998" approached the topic with respect and care.

"Thank you for being so understanding."

Vicky998: "Always, Niddhi. I'm here for you, no matter what."

As we continued our conversation, I felt a growing sense of connection with "vicky998." He was helping me explore parts of myself I had never considered, and I felt a mix of excitement and nervousness about where our conversations might lead.

I woke up the next morning feeling a mix of excitement and nervousness. The previous night's conversation with Vicky998 had left me thinking about things I had never allowed myself to explore. I remembered my conversation with Vicky998 multiple times today, & following week...

On friday night, While i changed into my black satin shorts & camisole top without bra, My phone buzzed with a new message, and my heart skipped a beat.

Vicky998: "Are you interested in exploring more? Tomorrow is the weekend, and If you are not feeling sleepy. I can make you feel amazing. You'll learn something new. Interested?"

I hesitated, feeling a wave of shyness and curiosity. Part of me wanted to dive into this new experience, while another part felt nervous about what it might lead to.

'Well, I don't know. I'm a bit hesitant. I've never done anything like this before.'

Vicky998: "No harm in trying..."

"I'm not sure. It's a bit overwhelming, but I'm curious."

Vicky998: "That's understandable. We can take it slow, and you can stop anytime you feel uncomfortable. How does that sound?"

His reassurance made me feel more at ease.

"Okay, let's try. But please, be patient with me."

Vicky998: "Of course, Niddhi. I'll guide you through it gently. Let's start with something simple. Imagine you're at the office, and Vicky comes over to your desk. What do you think he would say to make you feel special?"

I closed my eyes and let my mind drift to the office.

"He would probably compliment my work and say something that makes me smile."

Vicky998: "Perfect. Now imagine he leans in a bit closer, his hand lightly brushing against yours. How does that make you feel?"

I felt a shiver run down my spine as I imagined the scenario.

"It makes me feel excited and a bit nervous."

Vicky998: "Good. Now imagine he places his hand gently on your shoulder, giving it a soft squeeze. What do you do?"

I took a deep breath, feeling the tension in my body.

"I would probably look at him and smile, feeling a bit shy."

Vicky998: "And if he moved his hand around your face, just lightly brushing his fingers along your skin, how would you react?"

I felt my heart race as I pictured the scene.

"I would feel a rush of excitement and maybe close my eyes for a moment."

Vicky998: "That's great, Niddhi. Now imagine he whispers in your ear, telling you how beautiful you are. What would you say?"

I blushed deeply, feeling the intensity of the moment.

Me: "I would probably say thank you and feel very flattered."

Vicky998: "You're doing great. Let's take it a step further. Imagine he asks if he can touch your waist, just to see how you react. What would you do?"

I hesitated, feeling a mix of boldness and shyness.

"I would nod and let him, feeling curious about what comes next."

Vicky998: "And if he places his hand on your waist, gently pulling you a bit closer, how does that make you feel?"

I felt a flutter of excitement in my stomach.

"It makes me feel excited and a bit nervous, but also very curious."

Vicky998: "You're doing wonderfully, Niddhi. Now imagine he asks if he can touch your thigh, just to see how sensitive you are. How do you respond?"

I felt my cheeks flush with heat.

"I would nod, feeling very shy but also excited."

Vicky998: "He gently places his hand on your thigh, just above your knee, and starts to slowly move it upwards. How does that make you feel?"

I could almost feel the touch as I imagined it.

"It makes me feel very excited and a bit breathless."

Vicky998: "And if he leans in to kiss your neck, softly and gently, what do you do?"

I closed my eyes, feeling the intensity of the imagined moment.

"I would tilt my head to give him better access and enjoy the sensation."

Vicky998: "You're doing so well, Niddhi. Let's make it a bit more intimate. Imagine he asks if he can touch you under your Kurti, just to feel your skin. What would you say?"

I hesitated, feeling a rush of heat through my body.

"I would probably nod, feeling very shy but also very curious."

Vicky998: "As his hand moves under your Kurti, gently caressing your skin on your love handle & curvy hips, how do you feel?"

I felt my breathing quicken.

"It makes me feel very aroused and excited."

Vicky998: "That's perfect, Niddhi. Can you tell me what you're wearing now?"

I hesitated, feeling a mix of shyness and boldness.

"I'm wearing a black camisole top and shorts"

Vicky998: "Thank you for sharing that. Now, imagine he gently guides your hand to touch yourself, just to see how it feels. How do you react?"

I felt a rush of heat through my body as I imagined the scenario.

"I would follow his lead, feeling very shy but also very curious."

Vicky998: "You're doing wonderfully, Niddhi. Now touch yourself, imagine how it feels, and let yourself enjoy the sensation. What do you feel?"

Touched my lips, my neck flicking my hair aside... I closed my eyes, letting myself get lost in the moment.

"I feel a mix of excitement and pleasure, feeling very sensitive to my own touch."

Vicky998: "That's perfect. Let yourself explore your body, learning what feels good. It's all about understanding your own desires."

I felt a sense of liberation as I followed his guidance. Typing with one hand... and freely roaming my hands around my body...

"I feel very aroused and excited, enjoying the sensations."

Vicky998: "You're doing so well, Niddhi. Remember, it's all about what makes you feel good. Enjoy the moment and let yourself explore."

As I continued to follow his guidance, I felt a sense of satisfaction and self-discovery. As I touched my boobs, I couldn't help but kept caressing it, feeling my erect nipples. The touch had aroused me, I was enjoying every sensation.

Vicky998 had helped me explore parts of myself I had never considered before, and I felt a growing sense of confidence and liberation. The night ended with me feeling more connected to my own desires and more comfortable with who I was.

The morning after our intense conversation, I woke up feeling a heavy sense of guilt. The excitement from the previous night had faded, replaced by a nagging feeling that I had crossed a line. I knew I had to put an end to my chats with Vicky998. My phone buzzed with a new message from him, and I knew I had to muster the courage to tell him.