I tell the whole truth, again with no delay.

“I use X-Change pills,” I tell Victor, right away, with no delay, hoping it would put me in his good graces. There is still some nervousness in my voice, but there is no helping that considering the previous moments. “They transform me from my male self to what you see now.”

There is a tinge of disappointment in Victor expression, but mostly it's his original stoic demeanor as before. He has his arms crossed across his chest and for now, he seems ready to hear more of my explanation.

I decide to tell the whole truth regarding my use of X-Change, in relation to what I do in the daytime. I tell him I have only used X-Change in the last year, on weekends, for the fact that there is no need of me to report in to the job site on those days, which include the afternoon of Friday. I signed up for the Fleshy, the app that connected me to Victor in this sexual context in the first place, not for the money, but more for the practice in sex as Charlene. It was the anonymity that drew me in to using the app and ever since, I had had sessions with multiple partners in the immediate area.

Again, his stoic expression does not change. Ever since he stopped to listen to my explanation, not once has Victor gotten mad or showed any other emotion. He does step up to hand me back my phone. “I cannot begin to understand your reasons or your desires in this body. Just so you know, this has definitely changed how I see you now, but rest assured, I don't wish to change my behavior when you are back as Charles, especially in the presence of your co-workers,” he says. “And I understand if you want to leave right now, but if you are able, I'd like to hear more. I'm guessing our session isn't over yet?”