[CONTINUE]

We went upstairs to Emily's dorm room and put on some music while she changed into sweats. I laid down on her bed, since there was no couch in her tiny room, and Emily sat at her computer. She asked, "Do you want to watch a movie, or play video games, or what? You get to choose since it's your birthday weekend." I told her I was fine with anything, and she cocked her head to the side and asked, "Wait...anything?" I hesitated and she playfully smacked me on the arm. "No! Not like that! If you're up for watching anything, I'm going to put the Barbie movie on, because I haven't seen it yet." I chucked and said, "Oh yeah, that's totally fine. I get to watch Margot Robbie for two hours, how can I complain?" Emily playfully rolled her eyes and said, "Ugh, typical. OK, move over." Emily sat next to me in bed and put her laptop on her thighs so we could both see it. She started the movie and we watched together, with occasional comments from her about how hot Ryan Gosling is.

About 20 minutes into the movie, Margot Robbie changes into a tight pink dress and I couldn't help myself. "My god, she's so fucking hot." Emily laughed and said, "Is she your top celebrity crush?" I answered, "Right now, definitely. It changes." We finished the movie and Emily asked me how I liked it. I told her it was great and joked that Margot Robbie made it especially enjoyable. Emily said, "OK, well you can put this back on when you get home later and enjoy it some more in private."

"She's gorgeous, but I'm not gonna watch a Hollywood blockbuster to get my rocks off."

Emily laughed. "Oh right, you need one of those JOI videos." She put on her sultry voice and said, "Jerk it for me, baby."

I looked at her and said, "OK, well that’s a permanent part of my spank bank now.”

Emily laughed harder. "You're gross. It's weird that a girl telling you to jerk off can turn you on more than watching porn."

"It's different. Porn is fun, too, but a JOI feels a bit more intimate and you can fantasize about it actually happening in front of you."

Emily nodded. "I guess that kind of makes sense. Dirty talk is fun in person, so I guess it's kind of like that if you imagine the girl is with you?"

"Yeah, exactly. It's more about the fantasy. But if a girl said the things in a JOI video to me in person, I think it would be awkward. At that point, we'd just hook up."

“Yeah, I guess that’s fair. Can you show me one of those videos?"

I nodded and pulled one up for her. She looked at me and said, "You found that way too fast."

I responded, "I know what I like."

Emily played the video and skipped through some of it to get an idea of what it was all about. She wasn't uncomfortable or anything - it's not like she was a prude - so it was interesting watching her reactions. She seemed more like she was genuinely interested. She looked up and said, "I guess I kind of get why it's appealing."

"Yeah, and it definitely does the trick." I was getting hard just hearing snippets of the video and, since I was lying on the bed next to Emily, it wasn't easy to hide my bulge. Just as I thought to myself that I should turn over, Emily noticed.

“Really, dude? You have a boner just talking about this?”

“Well, you played the video, so...yeah.”

{first_bff] laughed and smacked me on the arm. "Well, I'm going to crash for the night, so go home and take care of that thing."

It seemed like a pretty clear dismissal, so I grabbed my stuff and went back to the apartment. I made sure to let Emily know that I was home.

Me, 11:47PM: Just got back.

Emily, 11:47PM: Good! Did you know they make JOI for women?!

Me, 11:48PM: Yeah, I've clicked on them by mistake if they're not labeled right. Very jarring, haha!

Emily, 11:48PM: Yeah...I think I get it now. Still don't think I would ever make one, but I get it.

Me, 11:49PM: Yeah, I know you wouldn't. I think you could, if you wanted to, since you can change your voice and stuff, but I figured you'd find it embarrassing.

Emily, 11:51PM: It's not even about it being embarrassing. Like, why would someone listen to it when there's already so much out there? I don't think anybody would, right?

I let those messages hang in the air for a bit. I started to write, "I would" but thought better of it. Then, instead, I started typing, "Yeah, makes sense" but deleted that, too. Something bold seemed inappropriate. Something safe seemed like I was throwing away an opportunity, especially since her message had been a question.