Forgive Me... I have Sinned

I allowed myself to be separated from my sisters. I knew that i should have never trusted man and i was told by my father. I was afraid of being in an arranged marriage and yet i would give anything to take it now. I knew what i was getting into when i went out to have fun, but i didn't know i was gonna get set up let alone sold to the highest bidder. For the last 4hrs i have been sitting in this chair, i have been stared at longer than anyone in my life. 2 of the men went about their time and even downloading the contents of my phone. I was told to give up everything and things would be easy on me. Out of fear, i told them everything about my life... My whole family's names, the banks i work with, the PIN numbers, and everything they wanted.

The men started to get more disgusting as time went on. I explained that i gave them everything they wanted... what more did they want? All of them looked at me and i instantly cringed... i was wearing my hijab and i am very strong in my beliefs. I think i am going to break that today... by choice or by ****.... I guess **** it is. 2 of them grabbed at me and tried to rip my clothes off of me until one of them stopped the others. He stood in front of me and picked me up from the chair before i had fallen. I could see something large and hard in their pants... they got off on this. The man guy taller than my own father and very black. I've never been interested in black or white, but this man was large and strong... i could see he commanded a lot... i was scared of him instantly. Looking at the others, they were buff as well.

"Little one... You are what? 23? 24?"

"22 actually."

"Even better. So... take that thing off your body that you hold sacred."

He says it so calmly and that is what scares me the most. He walks over and touches it ..i step back. He looks at me again as he steps in closer and says it again. I ask him what he wants... He says he wants me to take my clothes off. He grabs a chair and has a seat in front of me like the others do. I take it as them being nice, so i do it... they turn on music... none that i like but was enough to let me know they wanted me to strip. So i did... i tried to go fast, but they told me to slow down.... so i did. Ive seen the movies before, so i just recreated the ones i saw. If i wasn't being **** to do this, i would say i am proud of myself.

Before i know it, i am topless and now in some panties that is not allowed in my culture, but i guess in this situation i am not there. The men take my arms down exposing my breasts. Pictures are taken... even with my own phone. The others ask for permission to take them off and they slide them down.... They slap my legs forcing me to spread them open. I was nice and trimmed... one of the guys came to me and knelt down before me... he called me his goddess. He went for my vagina and i pushed him away. The black man waved at him to continue... I said no... they said yes. I feel his tongue grazing my body like anything i have ever felt before. I wanted to bend down in pleasure, but i couldn't... I didn't want them to win.

The man squeezing my butt cheeks and digging in with his tongue made me feel and eruption of pleasure i had never felt before. I stood there in shame... they applauded me for it... i felt shame and disgust. The big man stood up and undid my hair... it was long and fell to my rear end. I could feel them playing with it.

"Reach out your hands."

I didn't know why yet, but i did... i felt their penises in my hands. Both hard and fleshy... I didn't want to touch them, but i was scared... so i did. For a moment there i forgot someone was standing there recording me... i knew i was going to be blackmailed. I was lost... I didn't know what to do with them, so they showed me... showed me how to stroke them. I was told to spit on them and rub them. While i had 2 in my hands and one licking me... i wanted to lay down... I wanted them to take me. I felt fingers going in me. The tall black man made me stand there and enjoy it... i cried. He had a phone in my face as i expressed orgasms for the first time in my life. I wasn't a virgin, but i had never enjoyed orgasms like this... i know they are corrupting me. I know what **** is... they are taking my body and making me like it... making me enjoy it... making me want it.... is it really **** if i want them to fuck me?

The tall man keeps me up as i orgasm again and again. Finally, i collapse. They pick me up and take me to a bedroom. I watch as they shut the door and i see white and black penises come out... none wanting or looking for a condom. One of them puts a penis near me and i instinctively open my mouth. I didn't know what to do with it, but my body did... I started to suck on it not even knowing how. The man was enjoying it... i could feel the blood flowing through it and getting harder... my attention was on him until i saw someone lift my legs and entered me. I found myself adjusting myself.

In and Out it went... I asked them to not do this, but they reminded me that i was the one who was sucking a cock. What's a cock? The thing you are sucking on... Keep sucking on it. He was going hard and harder... i couldn't keep my attention on this... cock, so i let it go. I watched him rub himself and it excited me. I could feel the juices getting louder...one of the men even said i was getting wetter... I didn't know what he meant until he stopped and took his finger inside me and slapped my juices on my face. I cursed at him, and he continued to fuck me more... i understood now. I remember the clock saying 345 when all of this started. By the time they got me in the bed it was 543... 2hrs of resisting and pleasure made time fly and it wasn't over yet.

All of them had their turn with me... I saw the camera still and even ignored the fact it was there... I kept hearing that i was a good slut and i felt some form of reward when it was said. I thought **** was ****... i learned it was also through pleasure too. I was told to get on top of him. I didn't want to, but i did. I didn't know what i was doing, so they guided me...i felt someone else come from behind... i instinctively raised up thinking he wanted doggy style, but he kept me down... in fact he **** me down as the other man held me down with his arms. I felt something go in my asshole and that's when i knew what pain was. In and out they went... I felt pain and pleasure at the same time... they were corrupting me.

The black man held my face up and i moaned in pleasure. I liked it. All if it went on for a few hours and i found later that they all had come in me... I fell off of them and watched as they used my Hijab to dry my juices and cum off of their cocks. One of them even brought it to me and wiped my vagina with it and then threw it on me. Watching them get dressed the big man told me to put everything back on. They all threw my clothes back at me and they watched me put everything back on... they made me look in the mirror and even took pictures of me with stains everywhere.

"Get out."

"I can't go home like this."

"Not our problem... Oh and when we do come calling i hope you are ready and maybe you can bring one of your Arabic friends... We can have another good time. Now get out and wait."

I walked out in shame and forgot that i was in a public building. People were looking at me as i cried in shame, but then i saw my phone light up with pictures and even a video clip of me talking nasty during sex... I deserved it... I didn't fight it. I was **** on a level that made me want it... People looking at me in disgust seeing what was all over me. Making my way out i had to take off some of my stuff and hide it as my friends came back to take me home. I locked my phone to keep them from knowing what i did. I feel ashamed, but i know one thing... I want it to happen again... is that wrong?