Experimenting

My name is Johanna, I'm 22 living with a roommate as a go to college. As a college girl, I spend most of the time on the internet. One day while straying off from a research that I was doing, I ended up in one of those popular chat rooms where people just chat, meet new people or even hook up. So I was talking to this guy who was just very aggressive. He kept talking about what he would do to me. One thing that caught my curiosity was him saying things about fucking me in the ass. It was very offensive at first, but the more he kept talking about it the more I thought about it.

"I would bend you over and shove my cock up your ass, and there would be nothing you can do about it!" He says. I have never revealed my true identity nor has he ever seen my pictures. I thought it was funny that he was talking like that, for all he knows I was truly a guy. So I went along with it. After a while, it got boring so I just signed off. Going to bed that evening, I was still thinking about it. How someone would just take me and fuck my ass regardless of what I say or what I am feeling. The more I thought about it the more I was convinced I wanted to try anal sex.

But how? I guess I could get something and just stick it in there, but there was just something about someone else's aggressiveness that draws me into it. The feeling of someone just fucking my ass. How do I do it without any men involved? I was single at the time and I did not have a boyfriend, being too busy with school. So I thought... "Hey my room-mate was a lesbian and she's been trying to get with me since I moved in." or "I could call up a friend for a favor who's in the line of work of... pleasuring people." Now don't get me wrong, I am totally straight but I do not want to come out as a slut to satisfy this urge and just get with the first man I see.