Bicurious Fantasies

It was 3 PM, on a rainy Friday afternoon, and I was home alone, my room mates were out for the weekend. The door bell rang, it was the last of the packages I ordered over the last days. I felt excited and had planned a horny night. Although I was a quite manly male, I sometimes had these very submissive bottom gay fantasies. A left-over from my college years, during which I watched a lot - A LOT - of sissy bbc and sissy hypno porn, wearing a tiny cock cage, for hours at a time. I had played a lot with dildos and anal plugs in those years, and learned that there is quite a lot of space in my ass. I had even played with a 24x7 dildo two or three times. I learned that width was more important to me than length, with almost any dildo from 6 cm wide or wider being able to give me an assgasm. I also learned - or rather, was conditioned - that I am not attracted to white cock, not even in my fantasies. My fantasies and dildo sessions would almost always focus on black men, and sometimes on a hung and hairy arab man.

Anyway.. I was getting ahead of myself! There was still quite some work to do from my side to prepare myself for a special night like that again, playing with myself, logging in to some chat sites to find some man interested in a date.. So as they say, "first things first". I opened all three packages, spread the contents on the bed and thought to myself: "Oh my god, you slut!"

Spread out over the bed were:

• a crotchless bodystocking made from "mesh" fabric
• white cotton panties, with a white cotton bralette / minitop
• a dark red schoolgirl skirt
• dark red overknee socks
• a tube of anal lube
• a tiny cock cage
• xxl-sized condoms, 69mm width
• a bdsm hood (one with only a hole for my mouth, no holes at the eyes)
• a ball-gag
• a collar and leash
• wrist and ankle cuffs, with rope

Oh, the dirty ideas I had when I was looking at this stuff!

First it was time for me to take care of some body hair. Because of my personal life I could not shave my legs, arms, chest - but the bodystocking and overknees would cover most of that up. I thought most men would prefer a smooth ass, so trimmed (on the lowest setting) in the right places. I filled the anal douche, and spend some 15 minutes on cleaning myself thoroughly enough so that it would stay clean all night long. Afterwards a nice hot shower, which made me feel warm and tired.

I got some coffee, rolled a joint, set back and enjoyed the silence. Home alone. I loved these nights. I was excited to dress myself, and started with the bralette, which instantly made me feel feminine. I continued with the body stocking, which covered up my legs, ass, body, and arms as well. The white panties, and the red skirt - it had been years since I had worn a skirt. Finally I put on the overknee socks, which indeed got up far over my knees. Damn, I felt sexy. I took a few hits from my joint, got up, straightened my outfit, and got in front of the mirror. I thought to myself, "for a tall male, straight in daily life, you are looking pretty fucking slutty". I was a little overweight, which gave me really nice and juicy ass and legs. The butt exercises I had been doing were also paying off. I liked how I was looking, and was definitely going to make some pictures that night.

But first, I checked the inbox of the extra e-mail address I used for the dirty stuff.