sleep, worrying about tomorrow.

With your libido settled down your mind is free to wander different topics. Mostly to worry about what would happen tomorrow. You weren't really sure Tritera could fully grasp what was so scary about this. You had grown up as a boy who socialized mostly with boys. You had the body of a woman and now some of the experiences of one but in truth you still felt like an intruder that would be found out. Should you come clean on the first day? Admit that you have no idea what you're doing and appeal to their mercy? Was it possible any of them would even want to be friends with the freak who had been a boy until last week? Would it be better to just pretend everything was normal and hope to blend in? If they find out just pretend you didn't think anyone would care?

You think you should come up with a plan but can't help catastrophizing every possible scenario. You stay up late worrying and doubting yourself, tossing and turning in anxiety. At some point your anxious thought turns to anxious dreams. The other girls find you out immediately, something in how you walk or talk is too inauthentic. You are chased out of the dorm and then out of town into the hopeless bog. Alone and afraid you sink into the muck. Pulled down, down down...

You awake with a start at Tritera's knocking, you're wet with sweat. You get out of bed groggily but happy to have a distraction to take you out of your head. You unlatch the door and she explodes in cheerfully marching to the table where she replaces the remaining crackers with a fantastic breakfast feast.

Tritera : "Alright kid, last meal here but don't worry, the dorms get their food from the same kitchen so you won't go hungry."