Zack talks with Heather

Back at the cabin Zack makes his way out onto the deck, He wasn't sure what time it was but the Sun was already reaching its peak, they must have slept longer than he thought. he looked down at the rippling waves of the lake and the shuttering leaves of the trees, lost in thought.

Heather...what do I feel. There's something there but what is it? Love? Lust? Curiosity? I need to know if she feels something for me to or if she just wants sex...Can i have a relationship with her like that? Like how me and Lisa are?

Lisa...being "Fuck Buddies" was her idea but was that all she wanted? I can see the way she looks at me, it feels the same as it used to. Everytime we have sex the feelings grow stronger and stronger...wait what feelings? It's just sex, nothing more, you already hurt her don't get attached again, no need to make this more than it is.

But what if I want more? Is that so bad I want to be loved? Want people to want me for more than just a big cock? To just spend the day together, talking, holding hands, cuddling? I've seen what just sex does to a person, look at Kurt, doing whatever he can, hurting whoever he can, just to get laid. I don't want to be that.

"Zack?"

My problem is I don't go for what I want, I let other people steer me towards them. I need to be in control of my life. Casual sex works for some people, look at Hannah. But me, I know myself, I need more. Zachary Bishop doesn't do casual.

"Zack, you okay?"

He turns to face Heather, a slight look of concern on her brow, her brown hair still greasy from the night before, most of yesterday's make-up gone. Her blue eyes shining in the light like sapphires on display, only for him.

"Hey Heather, I'm good, you okay?" he asked, blushing from the memories of the wake up moments before. She smiles "I didn't expect to be caught like that, it was kinda hot" he chuckles. Heather's still Heather after all he thought "listen, I want to talk to you about last night, about us" he said. "Did you like your surprise? Lisa told me you would" She asked, cheeks tinting pink with a slight blush "I did, It was amazing, you are amazing" he says, still smiling "But it made me think about what I want Heather" a look of concern starts on her face

"Heather I like you, you're beautiful, funny, annoying, frustrating, sexy, sweet when you want to be, scary when need to be" she grins deviously "I want to be with you, I know I agreed to Lisa's proposal, but I can't, It's been 1 day and I already want more." he sighs "Im tired Heather, Tired of hurting people, tired of being hurt, tired of letting other people lead me around. I want love, I want to share myself with 1 person, I saw the person I was turning into and I hated it. The thought of ending up like Kurt sickens me" Heathers face tenses at the mention of her cousin

"If you want that with me, I want to try. If you don't I'll let you go. Regardless of your answer I've already decided to end things with Lisa before I hurt her more" he says. She looks at his eyes for a moment before looking to the ground "Zack, I don't know" she says "Then think about it?" he says before kissing her on the forehead and hugging her. "I'm going to find Lisa and let her know" he turns to go back inside stopping at the door "Coming back in?" he says.

"I need a minute" she says, not letting him see the tear falling down her cheek