Troubled Teen

You held Nicole in your arms and listened to her softly snore while you cup one of her breasts in your hand. Tired and exhausted has you were you just couldn't fall asleep. You were too wound up, your nerves on the edge. Your heart was still pounding. The gears in your mind started spinning and overthinking everything. A few events kept repeating themselves, Nicole and Miranda's bards, Tom's presence, and Nicole... Nicole has you never saw her before.

But what really hammered at you were what they said tonight.

Miranda

'And play second fiddle to her? Sorry, but I'm nobody’s backup girl.'

Matt

'No one can touch your FUCKING PRECIOUS Nicole but you?'

Those words felt like a hot knife trust in your stomach. 'What was wrong with Matt? Couldn't he see what was happening to Nicole? Was he mad at her? Why?'

Tom

'I was promised some pussy and I ain't leaving without getting some.'

And you think 'Who promised him pussy?'

Sarah

'Well... looks like John has a pair after all.'

And you think 'Am I really that weak? Am I a really a pushover? Is that what they think of me?'

Nicole

'I don't want Tom, I don't want him to be my first... I... I want...--'

And you think _'Me. She wanted me. How long has she had a crush on me. How long have I been failing her?' and you feel a cold, hard pit inside you. 'I failed her!'_

And your own words in the bathroom that seemed to come out of nowhere.

'-I want you too.' , 'I can't lose you' , and 'be my girl'

Where did those words come from and why did they feel so right?

These thought chase each other around in circles in your head going nowhere like a hamster running in the cage... and then...

<CLICK>

Your mind finally caught up with your heart already knew. You really love Nicole.

With all the anger and resentment of their words, Matt and Miranda were right. You couldn't think of your life without her. She was there front and center of everything. You realize that almost every decision you took, you took with her. Nicole was precious to you, so much that you unknowingly scared off every guy who got close to her... because she was yours and everyone else came in second place.

You love Nicole. You always did. From the first day you meet in the yard outside your home. You have just been lying to yourself all this time... and you almost failed her.

<CLICK>

And with that realization all the tension finally left your body. Has you slowly fell asleep with Nicole in your arms you knew what you had to do and you vowed to never again fail Nicole.

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Nicole

She wasn't just physically tired, she was emotionally drained, exhausted from the night. It seemed as if she had gone through almost every emotion possible; trepidation, embarrassment, curiosity, desire, disgust, nausea, anger, resentment, abandonment, despair, relief, shame and finally love.

Even before John asked to fuck her ass she knew... She knew she had surrendered to him, the moment he made love to her so tender and passionate at the same time, the moment he made her climax again and again, made her the focal point of their lovemaking, she knew she couldn't, she wouldn't deny him anything. She had surrendered her heart and body and soul to him the moment he said '-I want you too.'

And yet... has John's warm arms protectively surrounded her and she fell asleep a final nagging, fleeting thought danced like the devil across the back of her mind... That John was holding back...