She denies herself

Monika jerked her hand away, and turned from the crack in the boards. "I should be ashamed. What would Mother Josephine think of me?" Tiptoeing back to her hiding spot, she tried to fill her thoughts with non-sexual things. After a few minutes, the men left and she was free to return to the correct side of the spa.

Monika, in her frustration, dressed herself fully, and then cursed herself for it when she realized she would just take it all off in the women's spa. She stalled in the lobby, trying to make up her mind. "Should I go enjoy myself, or return to the abbey to do penance for my sin of tempation?"