Reconciling

I sat on one of the log benches we'd made and stared out into the sea. 'I can't believe I just did that. I wasn't even thinking! This whole island is fucking with me. I don't usually get this sexually frustrated, and I've never gotten to that point before...' I thought. Alice hadn't followed me right away after I headed back and it had been ten? Twenty? Thirty minutes? I wasn't exactly sure my head still swam. I stood back up and headed for the path towards the pool. I couldn't just leave her there and I needed to try and make this right somehow.

Not two minutes down the path I saw her walking in my direction, she'd tied her sarong around her like a summer dress and the thing was basically see-through. She had her bikini bottoms on but her boobs swayed freely under the thin material as she walked over to me, "Alice, I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have done that and if you hate me know I un-" I was cut off as she all but pounced on me.

She kissed me on the lips again, I wanted to push her off but how could I really, after what I'd done. It was an innocent kiss, or at least there was no tongue involved and didn't last all that long. She wrapped her arms around me, and I gave in to her hug, we stood embracing for a short while before she whispered into my ear, "Thank you."

I didn't pull away, or anything but I flinched, "W-what?"

"For the past few days, I've been really on edge from how long it's been. I've been wanting to try and ask if we could watch each other masturbate again but I was scared I might upset you." Alice confessed.

I still felt like shit for what I'd done before, but that was a punch in the gut in another direction. "Shit... I'm sorry Alice. I didn't want you to feel like you couldn't talk to me and that you had to walk on eggshells. I'm just... I'm kind of all over the place right now and what happened earlier was because of that. I wasn't thinking and I'd completely spaced out and maybe we should have talked about how we were feeling but I shouldn't have done what I did."

"I know, you kinda whispered Liz's name a couple of times. I wish you didn't though, that bitch doesn't deserve your attention. Lets just, not get to that point of frustration again," Alice suggested grabbing my hand and heading back to the beach.

The rest of the night we continued on as if nothing had happened. Though I'd catch myself subconsciously checking Alice out more than before, not only that I'd also gotten hard multiple times after thinking about what I'd done in the waterfall.

We ate food and I stood up, "Hey Alice, I'm going to go to bed early, I'm feeling worn out."

"Alright, I'll join you soon," Alice said as she stood and kissed my cheek.

I headed back to the hammock and laid back and closed my eyes, "Maybe I should relax a little. It isn't like we had sex and so long as we don't cross that line it's probably okay, isn't it? God I don't know. I just feel like I might be freaking out about nothing and one of the many reasons I was concerned was that I didn't want to ruin our relationship but things were tense between us before this morning. I won't be the one to suggest or start anything though but how far would I be willing to go? As far as touching her again? I don't know," my train of thought was interrupted as the door to the shelter opened.

I didn't say anything and didn't open my eyes as she climbed in, "You forgot to put your top on," I said flatly.

"Oh no. I left it on the beach, do you want me to go get it?" She asked. I felt her move as she looked up at me.

I sighed, "No, it's fine I guess. Just maybe don't forget again."

She obviously hadn't forgotten it, and I should stand by what I have already said but in all honesty, it felt nice and I had only been thinking that I needed to loosen up moments before she arrived. Alice snuggled into me more causing her boobs to squish against my chest. I ignored it and soon felt myself drifting off to sleep.