Give me more!

you will meet men who can point out the way, can help dig you deeper into the pit. but now you will find levels where you have to admit you want this. the cost of entry is this admission of guilt. "i like it too" is a phrase you will find yourself using, even in the nastiest situations.

now you will be seen as a true skank, a disgusting, needy, "damaged" female, a sick girl who sluts around constantly, just looking for compromised situations. because she wants it, she needs it, she gets off on it.

now you are treated much worse, because now it's your movie, you're the sicko who wanted this. now everyone thinks of you as disgusting, they are universally repulsed by you. you carry your neediness like a foul odor, and everyone can smell it.

and this is where humiliation becomes an intrinsic part of sex: they know that you know that they know. they presume zero naiveté on your part. you can no longer play the bimbo card. you know whats going to happen, and you are still there, offering your sweet, skanky ass up to them. you are low-hanging fruit, and their hesitation to pluck becomes the bitterest of humiliations.

because look at you, look how you dress, look how you respond to these creepy and degenerate scenes, seeking out bullies and scathing trash-talkers, getting aroused by derision, swooning and whimpering in response to being called dirty names, all but asking to be treated like trash.

but now you have found it: this is where the golden orgasms are. the constant, ever escalating, ever more shameful orgasms. because being witnessed responding is what triggers you to lose all self-control, spurs you to respond more deeply, more wildly, and much more shamefully.

but of course there is danger here, because here men lose control too, and they lose it more aggressively and more selfishly than women do. some men will hit you with their fists, some will deliberately hurt your breasts and fanny. they will fuck your anus without lubrication and laugh about it: "see, she makes her own lubrication when it bleeds!" they will parade you publicly, forcing you to demonstrate your submission inappropriately, often in front of exactly the wrong person. "oh you know her from work? don't worry, she loves every minute of this!".

and what happens when they push you lower still? what if you want to be pushed lower still? where is this new, even "lower" place, what does it look like, who inhabits it, what are the rules, what is the price of entry? and what does it feel like to become lower and more debased than the needy skank you have already become?