Common ground

"So?" Quinara says climbing onto our now conjoined beds, "oh shit yeah she asked me a question" I think to myself, "no definitely not, you could have given me a million guesses and I wouldn't have ever gotten close" I answer honestly. Quinara shifts herself closer to me, "so how did you think life would turn out?" She asks me our faces now inches apart, "well I assumed I'd still be counting taxes for lord Baxter, I mean that's all I've ever known" I explain. Quinara chuckles, "gods is that all you wanted from life to be a coin counter? Did you have no dreams?"

"I had dreams it's just.... That's what Marcin did and well I knew I would do the same" I say trying to justify myself, "Marcin? That lord Baxter's previous bookkeeper? The one who took you in?" Quinara asks, I was honestly stunned I had told her that once and she said it was boring but despite that she had remembered this about me. "Yeah he took me in when I was six, taught me everything I know... I owe him my life, he passed around three years ago. I wonder if he's watching me from the beyond, he always said he was proud of me..." I pause "but would he be proud now that I've broken loyalty from lord Baxter and ruined the life he set out for me" I say doubtful of what he would think of me now. Quinara reaches out and holds my hand in hers, "I get it... Oftentimes I think of what my father thinks of me for deserting the clan."

We lie together hand in hand, bonding over our mutual feelings. In a way we were truly alike, both running from our past, from the life we thought we were meant to have. "I actually wanted to be a king when I was young" I admit to Quinara, I know lord Baxter served our King of the north King Felix, but I would have been happy ruling anywhere. "Didn't have you pegged as a tyrant runt" Quinara says
"no I wanted to be a good king, one who would make the world better" I explain, Quinara shakes her head.
"No such thing runt, you give a man that much power it inevitably causes them to become monsters" she says before elaborating "how many wars have there been because of the whims of kings wanting more? You're a learned man, fifty? A hundred? More?"

I was surprised at her disdain but I couldn't argue with her the kingdoms of men alone had enough wars to fill a history book, in fact less than a hundred years ago the north had two kings it was a war that unified them and laid waste to the previous rulers lineage. "I didn't think you'd know so much about history" I say surprised at her depth on this subject, "well yeah of course you wouldn't, I'm just a savage monster right?" She says teasing me for my past words. "Fuck you're not gonna let that go are you?"
"Nope" she says before reaching behind my head and pull me in for a kiss, my first ever kiss. I melt into the sensation letting her kiss me passionately, her grip firmly ensuring I couldn't go anywhere, not that I wanted to.

We finally part from the kiss and she gazes into my eyes "fuck that was..." I say in sheer disbelief at how good it was, Quinara lets out a soft giggle seeing how smitten I was. Quinara snaps me back with a joke "well you were alright" she says to me, I shake off my stupor "just alright?" Quinara ponders for a second "hmm maybe I misjudged, I think I need to get seconds to be sure" she utters before pulling me in for another kiss, her tongue probing my mouth, however unlike before I'm more prepared so I let my own tongue dance with hers. "Now that's more like it" she says as we part, I am left panting with desire; her praise makes my heart sing.