Some clarity

Scott woke up to the smell of coffee, good coffee. He opened his eyes and smiled. Jenn was gorgeous asleep, peaceful and relaxed. Her head was on his shoulder, her arm on his chest, their legs entwined. God she felt amazing, her breasts, her thighs, the weight of her, every part of this moment was incredible. He looked around, trying to not move and jostle her. He couldn’t see the clock; couldn’t tell what time it was. Lydia’s room had floor length single panel black out curtains; he couldn’t even tell if light was coming in the window.

The door opened, “You awake?” the voice was almost a whisper.

“Yeah, what time is it?”

“Almost 6. I have to get to work. I made eggs and coffee and a hangover smoothie for Jenn, don’t let it sit long.”

“Thanks Lydia.”

“Take care of her Scott, she’s a good one.” Lydia closed the door before Scott could respond.

Scott laid there for a moment and took everything in. The smell of the coffee and the knowledge there were eggs getting cold convinced him to start moving.

“Mmmh” Jenn clutched to him as he tried to get up. He took her hand off of him, kissed it, then twisted out of her other arm and got out of bed.

“Hey, where are you going?” she asked sleepily.

“Breakfast, I’ll bring you some food.”

“Okay.”

Scott went to the kitchen and got some scrambled eggs, a big mug of coffee and the smoothie Lydia had made and brought them on a tray to the bedroom.

Jenn was sitting, propped up by a stack of pillows, she looked at him, her facial expression curious.

“I got eggs, black coffee and a smoothie Lydia said would help with your hangover.”

“Oh God, give it to me.”

She drank some of the smoothie, “What’s in this?”

“I don’t know, Lydia made it before I got up.”

“It tastes good, I think there’s vodka in it.”

“Have some eggs, they’re good.”

“Ugh, I don’t think so.”

Scott sat and ate, watched Jenn work though the smoothie and sip her coffee. She looked at the clock a few times, there was plenty of time before they had to be at the shop.

“Scott?”

“Yeah Jenn?”

“Lydia, she’s really something isn’t she?”

“Yeah, she really is.”

“I get why you and her. . . well, I get why you guys are the way you are.”

Scott laughed, “That good?”

Jenn just blushed. She took another drink of coffee.

“She really loves you Scott.”

“I know.”

“No, like she’s in love with you.”

Scott couldn’t answer, he’d heard Lydia arguing with Jenn at the shop yesterday, but he didn’t know how to deal with what she said.

“Did you know?” Jenn asked.

“No, she never let me know, she always played it off as a fling, always acted like she didn’t really care about anyone like that.”

Jenn’s face got serious. “How do you feel about her?”

“I love Lydia, she’s family and you and her are the most important people in my life. But romantically? She’s my cousin, she’s family, I can’t imagine being in a serious relationship with her.”

“But you guys aren’t blood.”

“I grew up with her Jenn, she’s my cousin, all the things we’ve done don’t change that.”

“Shit, if she’d fucked me at 16 like that, I think I might have fallen for her.”

Scott laughed. “Yeah. But after a few times of her pulling away and acting like she just used you for sex you’d get over it.”

Jenn looked at him for a moment. “Are you over her, Scott? Truly over her?”

“I’m not sure that’s even possible Jenn, some of that feeling is still there, and she’s my family, I care about her, and she’s really helped me, no one understands us the way we understand each other.”

There was silence.

“I think I’m over the sex part, I’m confident I can say no to her, but that part of our history, it’s always going to be there. Can you handle that?”

Jenn thought for a moment. “Yeah, I think I can. Honestly Scott, I don’t think I can see Lydia without thinking about what we did last night, so I understand.”

They looked at each other, Scott smiled, it seemed like they’d at least reached an understanding. A weird, kind of fucked up understanding, but he’d take it.

“Speaking of what we did last night, I really need a shower.” Jenn said.

Scott laughed. “Did you two really go for four hours before I came in?”

Jenn’s face turned bright red.

“Seriously?”

Jenn didn’t respond, she just got up and started to head to the bathroom.

“Oh shit, my legs.”

Scott laughed and came over to help Jenn walk.

“Fuck, Scott, what did your cousin do to me?”

Scott helped Jenn to the shower, helped her in and helped wash her. She couldn’t bend over very far, and her legs were still shaky. As he washed her legs his dick started to react to his situation. He kissed her thigh, stood up and put his hands on her hips. “Jenn. . .”

Jenn noticed his erection. “Oh Scott, I’m sorry, I’m way too sore to do anything.”

“I understand.”

Jenn tried to give him a hand job, kiss him, but Scott could tell she wasn’t into it and stopped her.

“I’m sorry Scott.”

“It’s okay Jenn, we have plenty of time for that later, when Lydia’s not stealing you.”

“Scott, I want you to know that was a one-time thing, I want you, just you. I just needed to know.”

“And do you?”

“Yeah, I get it. I understand.”

Scott helped her back to the bedroom, Lydia had laid out some clothes for Jenn, just sweatpants and a t-shirt, but it would get her home so she could change.

“I’m going to call off work Scott, I need to sleep.”

Scott laughed. “Yeah, you got the full Lydia treatment.”

Jen punched him weakly.

“Oh shit, Scott, Lydia’s truck is still at the shop.”

“Yeah, and my bike is still at the Stable.”

“I’m so sorry Scott, I caused all of this, I was just so jealous.”

“It’s okay Jenn, I got to tell you, I’m a little jealous right now.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, you think I can top last night?”

Jenn looked at him, an understanding smile on her face. “You don’t have to Scott, I love you for more than just orgasms.”

“Back at you Jenn.”

Jenn hugged him, he hugged her back.