Relax

It will pass, of course. But at the time and in the moment it will seem to be your whole world. Narrowed down to those oddly colorful pachederms as they occupy you.

A bit like being consciously aware of your own breathing. The moment you know that it's happening, it's all you can think about. And maybe the elephants are a bit less panic inducing, but only slightly so.

"Relax," he tells me again and I want to laugh but I don't.

Instead my body just tenses and I bite my bottom lip and close my eyes and wish for something else. Because it would be so much easier if he wasn't showing me this side of himself, if instead he was the cold and heartless bastard I knew that he could be. If he didn't want this to be quite as much of a victory as I knew he did.

"Just do it," I utter out, almost a begging refrain but not quite.

"I can't," he chuckles, leaning over and then whispering teasingly in my ear, "You're too tight."

Somehow those words affect me. They make me melt and a moan comes out of me, bubbling forth beyond my control. I feel my knees grow weak and I shudder, searching for something to grasp on to but he's holding me up and that's the only reason I don't fall.

"Be mean," I say, now fully begging him, "Don't tease me. Don't tempt me. Don't be fucking kind. Just be mean. Please."

"You don't understand," he says, then shows me with his hand.

Shifting his hips back and running what feels like his thumb between the cheeks of me I feel that digit grow slick with the lube that is covering my hole. He swirls it around and then presses it forward, only to have it too rebuffed.

Little wonder the man was having difficulty. I'd seen his hands and I'd seen his cock and his thumb was decidedly less thick.

"You know what that is?" he asks me.

"Your thumb," I moan, knowing and understanding the point that he's making.

"No," he shocks me, "It's my fucking pinky finger. If I can't make headway with that, how do you think I'm going to manage with this instead?"

His cock presses forward again, a moment after his pinky leaves my asshole. It pushes into me and I feel it pressing at my hole that is too tight to give any ground and I know that he's right, but I still can't find it in me to give.

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