Chaotic Soul

Syd had let his instincts take over and now he had no idea how many times he done it with the Archimago, how much time had passed or even what form he had right now, his sense of self was getting all messed up, he was completely exhausted but his body kept convulsing violently despite his will, he desperately wanted but his body just didn't know how.
He began thrusting about not knowing what was going on, then his senses focused on the thing below him the thing he was connected with, {Citrinas, The Archimago} these words floated in his mind but meant nothing to him the way he was now, more words appeared {Woman} and {Servant of light} these had a clearer meaning in his head, they ment defilement, ****, and devourment.
His body started to move in accordance to these directives but *he* hesitated, *he* wasn't this, *he* was a doctor or at least a nurse *he* saved people- He was a monster his mind reminded *him*, even if *he* did all that he was still a monster, and a monster kills, rapes, defiles and devours after all he didn't hesitate to kill that ork or **** that woman back in the village *he* couldn't deny this and in that moment of doubt his body moved towards the **** woman only to stop the very next moment as it's blood turned to liquid fire and pain assaulted the entirety of his being.
He was a monster yes, *he* reminded himself, but more than humans more than the servants of light the thing he longed to defile was monsters themselves that's 's why he attacked the ork, why he made use of such an unnecessarily cruel method to kill it, that's why he kept killing his spawns in the dungeon, and naturally if he was a monster himself he wouldn't be spared, yes, this...this was acceptable he decided, embracing the pain that signaled the end of his existence and yet... as his consciousness started to fade *he* realized *he* didn't want to die *he* wanted to live even if it ment discarding *his* humanity so he would be a monster, in response to his will his monstrous body quickly started to repair itself, yes he was a monster, and a monster kills, rapes, defiles and devours but *he* still didn't want any of those things to happen to that woman before him and he would gladly kill, ****, defile and devour any monster that defied him even himself but *he* still wantend to live....

If someone were to see the scene that was playing out in Citrina's workshop at that time, he would have seen the Archimago **** on the floor surrounded by a ring of writhing biomass that was vaguely reminiscent of a plant it was both disturbing, beautiful and revolting all at the same time.

When Syd first took this form he was almost big enough to fill the whole lab but now he had already shrunk to be even smaller than a person and he kept getting smaller and smaller until he had become a seed.