No, back to Pewter

You’re gripped by the desire swelling back up within you, the sight of Diane being bounced on her lover’s huge fuckstick and the sound of her intense cries of ecstasy fogging your mind. Then there’s the other girl, whose name you don’t even know, being shared by the crowd and nearly broken by lust. You want to join in, to fuck that nameless set of holes again, to watch Diane be turned into a drooling mess, to cum, to cum dammit!

But that guilt, that doubt, still sits in your chest, weighing on you like a stone. It will only get worse if you stay here… with a herculean amount of effort, you turn away. “I’m heading back to Pewter City. Bye.” Out of the corner of your eye you see Nate shrug, uncaring of what you do while he’s busy with his living sex-doll. You stagger away from the site of the gangbang, erection pulsing uncomfortably in your jeans, the sounds of two women getting fucked silly echoing behind you.

You’re practically a zombie for the walk back to town, not even present within your own mind. Everything is a blur around you, until you bump into someone.

“Ah, watch wh-Oh, it’s you. Of course.” Blue’s irritated voice breaks you out of your stupor, and you suddenly take in your surroundings. You’ve already reentered Pewter City, and are standing at the door to the Pokécenter that Blue has just exited. She’s now sitting on the ground, having been knocked over by you plowing into her. From this angle, you can see her black panties peeking out from under her miniskirt.

You hold a hand out to her and pull her to her feet. “Sorry, Blue. I was zoning out. You okay?”

“Of course I’m okay!” She snaps. “I just fell on my butt. Not the end of the world.”

“Sure it doesn’t need a massage?” You joke weakly, trying to push your earlier thoughts out of your mind.

“…You okay? You seem weird.” Blue narrows her eyes at you.

You avoid answering by asking a question of your own. “Blue, have you heard of the Overlord of Route 3?”

She rolls her eyes. “Yeah, Nurse Joy warned me. Is that why you’re so weird? Did you lose all your money, go broke?”

“No.” Is all you say in response.

Your rival’s expression shifts from one of annoyance to one of concern. “Okay, seriously, what’s up?”

You stare at her blankly, then just sigh. “There was a gangbang going on. I had to join in, or else they would take all my money.”

“…And?” Blue tilts her head in confusion.

“I… it didn’t feel… right. I mean, it felt good, but… I don’t like the idea of challenging a girl who was already beaten.” That stone in your chest has broken apart, and is swirling about.

“Why? That’s just part of the deal.” Blue doesn’t seem to understand your predicament.

“Because… When I left home, I promised my Mom that I would be nice to the girls out there… so I just…” You exhale heavily in frustration, unable to fully articulate your emotions.

She stares at you in amazement, then smiles, a little sadly. “Red… I think you may need to call your mom. Sort this out.” You give her a puzzled look, and she continues. “What I mean is… that wasn’t wrong. What you did. You shouldn’t feel bad, really. This is the life we female trainers choose to lead, the risks we choose to take. And fuck, this is me saying you’re in the clear here. I think… you may have misinterpreted Madison’s words a little. So ask her, please. You’re tearing yourself apart, and I hate to see it… er, it’s depressing to look at! Pathetic, even!”

You’re stunned at the blonde girl’s words, her earnest concern for you. Are you making too big a deal out of this? Is that why you seem so… disconnected from everyone else about this stuff? Is it all really ok? You sigh again, then speak. “Okay, Blue. I’m gonna go call my Mom, then, see if you’re right… Thank you.”

The girl smiles gently. “Sure thing. And, I’m pretty damn sure you did misunderstand Madison. I think I know what she really meant…” She mutters that last part. “I’m gonna go get something for dinner. See you tomorrow morning. 7:00 AM sharp, remember?”

“Right. See you then. Bye.” The two of you part ways, and you head into the Pokémon Center. Joy is busy with someone else right now, so you decide to have her heal your Pokémon after you talk with your Mom. You rush upstairs to your room, then plop down on your bed and pull out your Pokédex. After finding Mom in your contacts, you call her and wait for her to pick up.

It only takes two seconds. “Hi kiddo!” She answers cheerfully. “How are you?”

You hesitate. “I… well, I need to ask you something.”

“Oh? What?” At your Mom’s response, you just begin to gush, to vent everything. How complicated you had felt about what happened with Leah, the stuff with the Overlord, how tangled you felt inside… and what Blue had just said. You pour out everything, and your mother listens quietly.

After you speak, there is a full minute of silence, before your Mom responds. “I’m… so sorry, baby. This is my fault.”

The pain in her voice is a knife to the heart. “Nonono! That-“

“Let me speak.” You shut your mouth. “To put it bluntly… Blue is correct, Red. On multiple accounts. You did nothing wrong, you should not feel bad, and you… I wasn’t clear enough when you left home.”

The swimming pain in your chest immediately begins to fade, but does not dissipate entirely. “What do you mean?”

“I…hmm” It’s Mom’s turn to hesitate. “When I said those things when you left I… was mostly thinking about Blue, honey. I ju-“

And now it’s your turn to interrupt. “YOU TOO!?” You shout, surprising yourself with your own volume. “Everyone, huh? Everyone thought I was going to brutalize Blue! Daisy, Kim, everyone in town, Blue herself… and you, Mom?” Your voice breaks on that last word, and you start to just… cry.

You sit there, sobbing into the phone for a few minutes, before you eventually calm down enough to give her a chance to speak. “I did. And I am very sorry.” Her voice is rough, she’s crying too… “To be honest Red, the reason I was worried… is because I know how I would have acted in your situation. I would not have been as kind as you… and I didn’t want my sweet boy, my son, to act the way I would have. You’re a better person than that.” She takes a deep breath. “But, that was stupid of me. It’s because you’re a better person that you wouldn’t have even done that in the first place. I… I should have had faith in you. And now, you’ve been suffering because of my lack of faith.”

You have no idea what to say, so you just let her continue. “Please, listen to me honey. From now on, focus on enjoying yourself. Because, quite frankly, you won’t enjoy the few things that would make me disappointed. It’s not in your nature. I should have known that. You are a wonderful boy- a wonderful man, and I love you very much. I will always be proud of you.”

Sobs wrack your body for a little while longer, before you compose yourself. “I love you too… so I haven’t done anything wrong?” The childish desire for your parent’s approval, which never really goes away, wells up within you.

“Of course not sweetie. Of course not. From what you told me, that Leah girl was happy, and the other girl is enjoying herself, albeit maybe a bit too much. But that’s her problem.” She chuckles slightly.

That bundle of hurtful emotions has all but evaporated. “How will I… How will I know? What you wouldn’t want me to do?”

“Like I said, just trust yourself, like I should have. You can use the rules of our society to your advantage all you want, just don’t be heartless or cruel, make sure the lady enjoys herself, and only be as violent as a girl wants. And, fair warning, some will want you to be violent. Plenty of girls like it rough. I myself-“

“DO NOT NEED TO FINISH THAT SENTENCE!” You stop your mother in her tracks, before you learn things you really don’t need to know.

Mom chuckles. “Right, right. No one wants to think about the fact that their mom is a woman too.”

“I just… ugh.” You shudder, and with that the weight has disappeared entirely. You feel… lighter, like you’re breathing easier. Trust your judgement from now on, huh? Yeah, you can do that. You’ve been doing fine so far. You laugh to yourself; there’s going to be a lot more sex in your future, that’s for sure!

You and Mom chat for a little while longer, before she tells you she has to go meet up with Kim for dinner. After hanging up, you stand, feeling like a heavy tension has completely vanished from your shoulders. Time to heal up your Pokémon and get to training!