Self-Loathing and Self-Reflection

Sometime Later...

Exiting Knowhere Aaron looked at his watch and noticed that while he had spent almost ten hours in Knowhere thanks to its Time Dilation effect only a handful of seconds had actually passed outside.

"Ugh There Have Been So Many Headaches Today.," Aaron lamented, pinching his forehead. He wanted answers but he also wanted to just turn off his mind for a while and take a long rest so he made up his mind to look into it first thing tomorrow after his workout.

Aaron looked at his watch again., "Its Too Late To Call Zoey Tonight... Better Wait and Just Talk To Her Tomorrow."

Aaron stepped out of his shoes and stiffly bent down to remove his socks. Every muscle was sore and screaming for some rest. Next Aaron draped his suit jacket over a chair along with his tie then he undid the top two buttons of his shirt and unbuttoned his sleeves.

"This Will Be Different.," Aaron thought sparing the still sleeping Sydney a glance as headed toward his bathroom and then hopefully to bed for some sleep... something that was in short supply for him lately.

"How Long Has It Been Since I Slept In My Clothes?," Aaron wondered briefly to himself. Aaron had gotten use to sleeping in the nude, During the years he was sick he had to sleep nude in order for electrodes to be applied to his body to monitor his vitals while he slept and to send alerts if problems occurred. Then of course there were the numerous IVs to dispense the pharmacy of **** he needed to take just to make it through another day.

Aaron often wondered especially when he was preparing for bed if he had been born into another family would they have gone to so much effort to keep him alive knowing that he would be useless or would they have just pulled the plug and let him pass away in one brief, final struggle to live.

But he hadn't been born into another family, He had been blessed with a loving Mother and three incomparable Sisters. That thought alone inspired deep anger within Aaron over his actions and not because of the lives he had taken... Those Bitches started a fight they couldn't finish and they deserved what they got. No, What upset Aaron was that he let his own inability to maintain control endanger everything he worked so hard to achieve. His Family was the very core of his being and he put that at risk. That was unacceptable. He would have to do better. No, He would do better. He could never repay the debt he owed them for being so good to an inferior NAT like him but he would spend whatever time he had left breaking his back to make sure they knew just how dear to him the precious gifts they had bestowed upon him were.

"One Step At A Time Cross.," Aaron addressed himself internally., "You Miscalculated... Do. Better!"

Aaron looked away from the disappointed eyes staring back at him in the mirror as he finished brushing his teeth. Aaron finished up and turned out the light. Closing the door to his en suite, Aaron moved swiftly and silently over to his bed but before climbing in he noticed a strange fragrance hanging in the air.

Aaron stopped and sniffed the air, He didn't know exactly what it was but for some reason he liked it. The wild and musky scent prodded at some feral corner of his mind, making his entire brain tingle. It was a difficult sensation to describe but he felt warmth rushing through his veins. He felt dizzy and light-headed then Aaron noticed something a bit concerning. For some reason he had an erection, It painfully throbbed against the side of his leg as it strained to stand straight up.

It was times like this that Aaron really hated his indifference to the cold because a nice, long cold shower would really help right now. Since another shower was out of the question he could either ignore it or take care of it so he did what alot of Men in this situation would do and he went back to his bathroom, closed the door and took care of it. He tried and failed miserably not to imagine jerking off all over the faces of one of his Sisters or his Mother. Since it happened he was just glad it wasn't Monica, his younger Sister... He had enough issues at the moment and that was one can of worms he didn't want to open though it didn't help that his Mother and Sisters were becoming increasingly sexual towards him. It had been building for some time but it had gotten worse lately.

It took him twenty minutes to get it all out of his system but he felt alot better once he pumped out that last load of cum. It was bad enough that he couldn't stop himself from imagining his Mother giving him a blowjob but just a few minutes ago he imagined his two older Sisters, Kimberly and Michelle naked and on their knees taking load after load on their smiling, ecstatic faces and their firm, perky tits.

If it weren't for the rush of endorphins and dopamine high he was experiencing after a successful jerk session he probably would have been more upset but as it was his self-loathing over his apparent **** fetish was only a 7 on a scale of 10 instead of his usual 11.

"They're Beautiful... Even I'm Not Dumb Enough To Dispute That But Why Do I Find Myself Increasingly Attracted To My Own Family?," Aaron wondered as he paced back and forth in front of the mirror., "Sure Its Not Technically Wrong... I Mean Sure Its Not Like I Could Get My Mother or Any of My Sisters Pregnant But... It Feels Somehow Immoral."

"What Are You Thinking So Hard About?," Aaron flinched when he heard the unfamiliar voice only to realize that his reflection was addressing him. It took Aaron by surprise at first as his reflection was fully dressed and he was standing there in bare feet with no jacket or tie.

"Great Now I'm Talking To Myself.," Aaron chuckled wryly., "Alright I'll Play Along... What Am I Thinking So Hard About?"

Aaron's reflection nodded.

"Oh I Don't Know...," Aaron chuckled then his expression turned serious., "... Could IT POSSIBLY BE THAT I AM GROWING INCREASINGLY DISTRACTED BY THOUGHTS OF FUCKING THE WOMEN IN MY OWN FAMILY?"

"Why Do You Have To Be So Serious and Dull All The Time?," Aaron's reflection replied to his agitated outburst of emotion with a laid back attitude., "Can't You Just Relax and Have A Little Fun Once In A While?"

"They Need Me! I Have To Protect THEM!," Aaron snapped back, Momentarily surprised by the fact that he was carrying on a conversation with himself like a mental case.

"Sure Because They Definitely Can't Take Care of Themselves You Sexiest Bastard!," The Aaron in The Mirror growled.

"You Don't Understand... You Don't Know What's Out There! What I Have To Deal With!," Aaron argued back.

"Neither Do You Aaron...," The Aaron in The Mirror smiled hideously, causing Aaron to flinch., "... For All Your Intelligence You Still Have No Idea What's Happening or What's About To Happen."

Aaron found himself getting more and more angry as The Other Aaron taunted him with increasing venom.

"What's Wrong With Desiring Beautiful Women? So What If You're Related To The Women You Desire... You're Young, You're Strong, and What's More You Have Potential The Likes of Which These Fools Can Ever Hope To Fathom....," The Other Aaron's smile broadened., "We Both Know They're Better Than That Cocktease of A Girlfriend of Yours!"

"Hey Don't Talk About Zoey Like That!," Aaron roared., "She's Incredible. She's Smart, She's Funny, She's Beautiful..."

"Yes, She's All That... But...," Aaron gulped loudly as his Other Self's smile threatened to swallow his pale face., "How Does She Compare To Your Mother?"

Aaron gasped as an image of his Mother formed in his mind. She was smiling, He always remembered her smiling and she was wearing lacy black lingerie with stockings and the top of the lacy nighty she was wearing was pulled down to reveal her firm, round G-Cups topped with hard nipples just begging for attention.

"Mommy's Here To Make Everything Better.," Cyndi purred beckoning Aaron with her finger as she tugged her panties to the side, giving him the perfect view of her shaved pussy.

Aaron's cock twitched and he tried to banish the arousing image.

"Not Enough?.. How About Your Sister Kim?," The Aaron in The Mirror cackled evilly.

His Mother was replaced by a new image and a new scene but before she faded from view entirely she blew Aaron a kiss that had him nearly cumming on the spot.

Aaron groaned, his erection stiffening even more as the next image took shape, revealing his oldest Sister, Kimberly reclining on top of a desk in a sexy pose. The skimpy top she was wearing doing little to hide her magnificent and totally braless D-Cups.

"Come To Me Aaron and Big Sis Will Teach You How To Satisfy A Real Woman.," The stunning redhead licked her lips.

Kimberly squeezed her spectacular breasts and moaned softly., "I'm Sure We Can Learn Alot From Each Other."

Aaron found himself being pulled forward but he stood fast and resisted with all his might.

The Aaron in The Mirror frowned., "Or How About?"

Aaron's breathing was labored and he struggled against himself not to lose control but it was hard and if we're being honest here so was he. Now he was being tempted by Michelle, his other Elder Sister.

"You Don't Need Anyone But Me Aaron... Your Big Sister Is All Your Hard Cock Needs."

Aaron grunted as much from the effort of maintaining control of his libido as from the arousing scene unfolding before his eyes.

Michelle was walking around as she sometimes did in little more than a pair of shorts. Aaron had had the shit kicked out of him more than once for accidentally happening across his Sister while she was walking around the house or sometimes even the grounds in nothing but a pair of shorts or almost nonexistent pair of panties but this time was different because this time instead of giving him a beating she stopped, tugged down her shorts and offered herself to him, giving her tight, toned ass a hard smack for good measure.

Aaron was on the verge of cracking but he held on though just barely.

"Stubborn Bastard Aren't We?," The Other Aaron cackled in amusement.

"What About Me Big Brother?!," The familiar voice made Aaron shiver but before she could manifest, Aaron **** his mind to become a void... A deep, yawning chasm where there was nothing and nothing itself could exist and he did it with a single word., "NO!"

"Touched A Sore Spot Have We?" The Aaron in The Mirror chuckled maliciously.

Aaron looked down and away from his reflection before mumbling., "You Wouldn't Understand."

The moment Aaron's expression began to fall, The expression of The Aaron in The Mirror softened somewhat., "Here's What I Understand Aaron and You Should To... If You Don't Rest You're Definitely Going To Wind Up A Basket Case... I Mean You're Already Talking To Yourself!"

With The Aaron in The Mirror's mocking pushing him over the edge, Aaron looked back to the mirror just as a pair of hands reached out and grabbed him by the throat. Startled, Aaron reached into the mirror which felt like ice water more than anything sold and grabbed his other self by the throat.

The two struggled with The Aaron in The Mirror trying to pull him in and Aaron trying to pull him out. After several minutes of effort The Other Aaron began laughing., "HA HA HA HA HA HA!"

"What The FUCK Are You Laughing At?!" Aaron roared at his laughing self.

The laughing immediately stopped and The Other Aaron's expression became instantly serious., "Why You Of Course... Can't You See Yourself Arguing With A Figment of Your Own Imagination?!"

As if coming out of a fever dream Aaron realized that he was staring at himself in the mirror and that he had ripped it off the wall without even being aware of it.

Given what had just happened Aaron should have been frightened or at least disconcerted to some extent... That would have been the normal reaction if what Aaron had experienced had happened to someone else but most of Aaron's reactions were anything but normal. He tried to analyze the situation logically and examine what had happened to him, all while putting the mirror back on his bathroom's medicine cabinet. Aaron repaired the hinges and put it back in place.

"There.," Aaron said completing the simple repair but upon closing the door he saw someone standing behind him.

Aaron whipped around to confront him but there was nothing and no one there. Aaron was alone.

"What's Happening To Me?," Aaron wondered cocking his head to the side as he looked at his reflection in the mirror. He marveled at how reptilian and cold-blooded he looked in this moment and then dismissed the comparison as childish.

"Fuck It! I'm Going To Bed. I'll Figure It Out Later."

[Click]

Aaron turned out the light and closed the door behind him.