Claire opens up

Claire sat with her brother in silence. The atmosphere felt less awkward now her mother had left the room, but she was still too deep in her thoughts to start a conversation. She wondered what could have happened to spook her mom so much and hoped the doctor could help her with it.

Her thoughts wandered back to the party the night before. It had been nice to get all the girls together again. She was glad they all took well to her brother. She considered organising another opportunity for him to hang out with them. It would probably do him some good. John didn’t seem to socialise much these days. She had been surprised to learn he was seeing someone though. Claire remembered Annie from school. She seemed like a really nice girl. Claire would have loved to see things work out between them.

Then Claire’s thoughts drifted back to the game they’d played. It hadn’t gone too badly all things considered. Sure Jody had a picture of John playing with her bare tits but Claire knew she’s keep it to herself. She’d felt John’s cock pressed against her back, but she’d had the sense to stop the game before it went too far. They’d shared some embarrassing truths but that would only make their friendships deeper. Jody had told Claire she didn’t let her do her usual drunk routine which she was thankful for. She hadn’t done anything last night she could really regret.

Eventually Lilith emerged from the doctor’s office looking a lot happier than when she went in. Claire mentally thanked the doctor for putting her at ease. She entered the doctor’s office and took a seat.

“It’s good to see you again Claire. How are things going with your boyfriend?”

“Boyfrien- Oh, you mean John?”

“Of course.”

“Right. Well, I’ve been trying to be nicer to him like you said. I’ve been going out of my way to help him with his chores and stuff. I think he might have noticed.”

“And how did that make you feel?”

“Pretty good actually. It felt good to see him happier because of what I was doing.”

“You see, the more you are willing to give in a relationship, the more it gives back to you.”

“You’re right. Maybe I could stand to become a bit of a better girlfriend after all.”

“As long as you are willing to admit that I think we can really make strides with your relationships. I understand you’ve been sharing a room with John since you’ve been home. How has that been for you?”

“Not as bad as I was dreading honestly. We’ve been pretty good about giving each other space and privacy. There’s only been a few slip ups really.”

“Such as?”

“You know, when he walks in on me getting dressed or I walk in on him… doing his thing.”

“You try to keep your distance while he’s masturbating?”

“Well obviously. I don’t want to see that.”

“You’ve never been curious? You can be honest here.”

“No.” The doctor held her gaze with a subtle hint of disappointment in her eyes. They sat in silence as the wispy smoke of the candles began to spread throughout the room. “Well… I mean just passing thoughts. You can’t really help it, can you? It’s natural to wonder.”

“You never acted on this curiosity?”

“No, of course not.”

“Not once?”

“Well… Okay, I walked in on him sleeping the other day. He’d been watching porn and he hadn’t cleaned up and I sort of put some of his… ‘stuff’ in my mouth.”

“Did it taste good?”

“Excuse me?”

“There’s no need to answer if it makes you uncomfortable. We’ll come back to this later. Tell me, do you sleep in separate beds?”

Claire was still perturbed by her previous question but breathing in the soothing candle smoke helped her forget her concerns. “No, there’s only one single bed. John insists I take it and he has a sleeping bag on the floor.”

“That doesn’t seem like something a good girlfriend would do.”

“He insisted I take the bed. I had ****. I felt really bad about it.”

“What about sharing the bed? That way you’d both be happy.”

“It’s just a single. It wouldn’t be appropriate.”

“Why not? I’m sure John would love the chance to cuddle up with his sister at night. It’d make him happy to be so close to you. Or do you not love your brother?”

“That’s not it. It’s just…” The doctor made it sound so innocent, but with how curvy Claire was, it would be far from just nice sibling bonding. Still, she did feel bad for him sleeping on the floor all the time. “Alright fine.”

“Good girl. Now let talk about the next stage of your relationship together. Tell me what you think couples do when they go out together.”

“I guess get dinner, watch a movie, go shopping. You’re saying I should do those things with John?”

“That’s the idea, but remember you are not doing these things for the sake of doing them. You are learning to make concessions in a relationship to overcome the stubborn side of yours.”

“So, we should just do what John wants to do?”

“Not at all. You would quickly grow to resent a relationship if you got nothing from it yourself. You should be seeking ways that you can both enjoy your time together. Let’s take your clothes shopping for example. I assume a young woman like you quite enjoys shopping for clothes. Did any of your past boyfriends have the same enthusiasm?”

“No.”

“Perhaps because you were not seeking ways to engage them in the activity. Buying clothes for someone else can hold little interest for hours on end and comes across as a chore. Can you think of any times when they were more engaged in your purchases?”

“I guess when I was trying swimsuits or lingerie.”

“Clothes that they like to see you in, because they get more enjoyment from the process and are invested in helping you choose. Did you ever let them have a choice in what you bought?”

“No, I chose what I liked.”

“Do you see how that might come across as a conflict? You were taking from your boyfriends any chance of engagement with the activity. As men they could see what was attractive on you, but you overrode their decisions.”

“I see.”

“Don’t worry. It’s a pitfall I see many women fall into. There’s a simple solution. You stop treating it as a private activity you dragged him along to and you turn it into an activity you can both engage in. Make it into his own private fashion show. Let him choose what you try on and be his model. Let him have his opinion on your purchases. Buy some you like and some he likes. Spend a little less time on the everyday clothing and more on the sexy ones he wants to see you in. Make sure every time you go out together you finish up with a nice lingerie set he picked out for you to give him something to look forward to. Not only will he enjoy it more, but you will too once you get him engaging and his eyes set on you.”

“Huh, that actually sounds like great advice. Thank you, doctor.”

“So you are happy to give all that a go before our next session?”

“Uh, I don’t really think I should go lingerie shopping with my brother.”

“I’m sure he wouldn’t mind. He would know better than anyone what looks good on you. Do whatever you feel comfortable with. For now, I want to continue onto our main point of discussion for today.

“Last session we discussed how you need to learn to give up your ego in order to fix your issues in developing intimate relationships, which in turn would help keep your **** self from seeking out self-degradation. There was one more point that we glossed over that I believe needs serious discussion as well; your intense sexual dissatisfaction that causes you to act out when you let your inhibitions go. Claire, in order to help you I need to open a discourse with you on sexual matters.”

“I understand.” Claire knew this was coming. With the nature of her problem, it was obvious that they would have to delve into some personal matters. Counter to her first impression, the doctor had been quite civil and professional with her. Her methods seemed a little unorthodox but somehow Claire was finding herself willing to talk.

“You realise I will have to ask you many personal questions to get to the root of this issue. Topics of masturbation habits, interests, fetishes and fantasies, past experiences and sexual identity are all possible leads. I would need you to be completely honest with me and hold nothing back if I were to help you. Is that okay?”

Claire hesitated. She knew there was nothing binding her word here, but she felt if she went any further, she would have committed too much to stop it easily. At the same time, she felt there was no way she could say no right now when she was on the path to becoming a better Claire. She nodded her consent.

“Good girl. Then to start off with, during and between relationships how often do you masturbate?”

“When I’m with someone, I try to hold back until I really need to so I’m always in the mood when my boyfriend wants it. Usually between relationships, I do it three times a week, but I haven’t been doing it as much since I moved back in with my brother.”

“Hm, that would be your first problem. A girl your age should be masturbating two to three times a day.”

“Seriously?”

“Indeed. In fact, a girl as curvy as you might need to four times a day to maintain peak sexual and mental health.”

“What does that have to do with anything?”

“Your large breasts and wide hips indicates your body contains a more potent mix of hormones than most girls your age. It’s no wonder you have such deep subconscious sexual desires when you are not even seeing to your body’s basic needs. It is unhealthy for you to be suppressing your libido like that. A healthy you would have no issue being in the mood to fulfil your boyfriend’s need after climaxing.”

“But I’m not horny enough to do it that often.”

“That’s because you are putting limits on your body. If you just allowed yourself to acclimate to your body’s needs, you would find your libido quickly restore to healthy levels. Just try it. Between our sessions, see to your needs four times each day and you’ll find it won’t be a chore.”

“Fine, I’ll try it.”

“Good girl. There’s something that I need you to do though. You see, your brother is distressed about the fact that he must announce to the household any time he masturbates. I’ve spoken to your mother and she has agreed it would be in everyone’s best interest to make that a household policy. I was hoping you would agree to show a united front alongside her.”

“You mean… tell them… when I…”

“There there, it’s alright. Don’t you feel bad for your brother humiliating himself all the time. Don’t you want to put him at ease.”

“I do but I-”

“Do you think any less of John for announcing himself?”

“No, of course not. He has to do it. I understand that.” She didn’t judge him for it but she did feel the second-hand embarrassment.

“Do you think John will think any less of you then? He’s your brother. You have nothing to fear.”

Claire breathed deep the relaxing scent of the candle smoke. It would be embarrassing, but if it would help John through his issues she could withstand a little humiliation. She felt herself calming down with every breath in. She supposed it was only fair to her brother if they had to share the ordeal. “Okay, I’ll do it.”

“Hm, do what?”

“I’ll tell John and Mom when I’m masturbating.”

“Very good girl. Now it’s best if we start fixing your libido right away.” The doctor produced a box of pills and bottled water from her bag. “These should help while your body returns to its normal state.” Claire took the pills without question. Reading the print on the side, she didn’t see anything suspicious about them. They claimed to regulate hormone levels like the doctor said. “Don’t worry. I’ve given your mother the same prescription.” She took a couple as the doctor waited for her.

“Now, why don’t you start masturbating for me?”

“I’m sorry?”

“It’s alright. I’m a doctor. If a gynaecologist asked you to touch yourself, you’d understand right. I need you to show me so I can help you. You can trust me.”

Claire took another deep breath of the thick candle smoke. It was okay. The doctor was a professional. It was just like just like when she went to the school nurse back when her breasts first became sensitive. Once the other kids found that out, they would sneak past and pinch her nipples to make her moan in class. She’d been in tears when she got to the nurse and hated how much more developed she was than the other girls, but the nurse reassured her, helped her with ways to avoid the bullying and made her feel more secure in herself. Somehow this moment reminded her of that.

“Alright, I’ll do it.”

As the doctor watched, Claire let herself carefully sink back into the chair. She slowly lifted her skirt and pulled her panties down to her knees. She could already feel a warmth building in her groin from the anticipation. She brought a tentative hand down to the mound. The doctor looked on without comment, waiting for her to begin. Edged on by the slight thrill of an audience, she pushed a couple of fingers in. She instantly felt the familiar pleasure that came from her private moments. Without further ado, she found the familiar rhythm she knew would bring her most pleasure.

“Good girl. Now while you are comfortable, I want to begin the main topic of our session today.”