She was happy

“Colin, that is so great. Jess is amazing. Well done for asking her out.”

“Thanks,” said Colin, bashful at the compliments. “We’ve been talking for a while. I was pretty confident she was already into me before I asked. This is kind of a test to see if we really do want to be a couple.”

“You kept that secret.”

“I didn’t mean to but I wanted to be sure I had something positive to report. There was one thing.”

“What was that?” Chloe asked.

She asked if you would be coming along as well. She said she was cool if it was just me but she wondered if we were still a thing and if so she would have liked you to come as well. I told her I wasn’t sure because the situation had changed. So, do you want to come?”

The idea of another threesome with Colin and Jess was desperately tempting but she had always aimed to help Colin come out of his shell. “No, you guys have a great time.” The situation made her aware of her feelings. She realised she had some talking to do with Sean. “I’m not saying I wouldn’t be interested in a bit of fun if it’s on the table but I really need to work on things with Sean.”

“I get it,” said Colin. “I don’t know how she’d feel about you joining us for some fun as you put it. As I’m getting to know her I think she’d be more than happy for that to happen. I might just see how things go first. We basically already agreed to start dating as a couple. I might need some advice from time to time.”

“A wise choice. I promise to spend more time with you. I’ve been worried about seeing you in case it upsets Sean but that’s going to change.”

“I have missed you these last few weeks. I liked having you around.”

“Yeah,” said Chloe. “I miss you too. We had fun together. Give me a chance to talk to Sean and then we are going to hang out but probably no to sex I’m afraid, at least for now.”

Colin got flustered. “I meant just hanging out, I didn’t mean to presume…”

Chloe laughed. “Chill Colin. It’s cool.”

“Sorry. I thought we probably shouldn’t. Unless Jess wants to then that’s different. I wouldn’t mind if she was okay with it.”

“Okay, I’m hanging up. If I keep talking to you I am going to be over there in a shot and I’m trying to be good.”

“Probably wise. I hope your talk with Sean goes well.”

“Good luck with your date. I want to hear all about it.”

They said goodbye and hung up. Chloe was left to think. She realised that she had begun to resent Sean for something that wasn’t really his fault. She had assumed she would maintain her friendship wh Colin and she had hoped that she would have sex with him occasionally yet once her life with Sean had returned to normal she hadn’t dared see Colin.

There was no doubt that she had started to develop feelings for him beyond the sex. If she was being honest with herself, they started to develop quite early on. Hearing about Colin’s date had reminded her of that early desire to help Colin out. Knowing that Colin wasn’t quite so available helped her deal with those thoughts. She did love him but she knew that he should find his own way and Chloe would be content to be his friend.

She took the earliest opportunity to talk to Sean about it.

“Basically, I’ve been avoiding Colin because I didn’t want to upset you but that isn’t fair on me. I really enjoyed spending time with Colin and I feel like I lost a friend when you came back. Simply put, I want to see him like I’d see any of my other friends. It doesn’t mean we would be having sex but I’m going to go over and play games and watch anime with him sometimes.”

Sean was reeling from the intensity of Chloe’s feelings. “Baby, I had no idea about any of this,” he said, defensively.

Chloe sighed. “I know, I’m sorry. You didn’t make me do any of this. Anyway, now he’s got a girlfriend. I think it should be okay to hang out with him again.”

“He got a girlfriend?”

“Yes, that cosplayer Jess I told you about.”

Sean had looked up Jess online and had enjoyed the frankly very sexy pictures she posted in her costumes. “She’s going out with Colin?”

“For fuck’s sake Sean. I already told you he was better in bed than you. I was’t fucking faking it. Stop sounding so incredulous.”

Her harsh words shocked him. “Okay, I’m sorry.”

“No, I’m sorry. That was mean. It’s not been easy going from the amount of sex I was getting to going back to our usual patterns.”

“You aren’t satisfied?” Sean asked.

Chloe looked bashful and shook her head. “By the end, he was taking me three times a night. He could really last and I would cum so much. It was kind of addictive.”

“Shit. You said you did it a lot but that puts it in perspective. I, I just can’t live up to that,” he stammered.

“I know.” There was silence then she asked, “How are you feeling?”

“Sad, worried.”

“Horny?”

Sean chucked, “Yeah.”

“I still love you, you know?”

“That’s a relief. I still love you too but I don’t know how I’ll cope with making love to you if I know you aren’t into it.”

They sat in silence again. Chloe wanted to tell him that she was still into making love to him but she wasn’t. She found their sex a little disappointing but she wasn’t convinced that it was worth losing the rest of their relationship for.

“Maybe our sex life should just become my sex life,” she suggested.

“What do you mean?”

“Well, you like sharing me, so maybe I just sleep with other people whenever I want? We could still be a couple and we could do it occasionally. I’d certainly do things to help you enjoy it like sending pictures and telling you all about it. If I did it here we could even film it for you or maybe some people would let you watch.”

It was tormenting for Sean. On the one hand, her words were like a knife stabbing him in the heart and on the other, it was like she had plucked the words from his darkest fantasies. “We’d still do it?”

“Sometimes. I was thinking that it would be more like you jacking off while I tell you things. I’d probably want to do it with you from time to time so we can reconnect a bit but mostly I’d find other lovers.”

“But you like a lot of sex. I’d barely see you.”

“I don’t need it three times a night every night. That was just a phase. If I know I can get a really good fucking then I would be happy with it more occasionally.”

“It’s hard to hear this.”

“I know baby, I do but I’ve come to realise some things about my needs and I don’t see you in that way anymore. That said, I’d like to save our marriage.”

“You are saying it could be the end for us if I say no?”

“I’m not saying it will be the end but I can’t see myself being happy. That doesn't sound like we could go on.”

“Do you really want to still be my wife?”

“Yes,” she said without hesitation or any sign of doubt. “I want to be with you, I just want more from sex than you can give me.”

The conversation went on going over many of the same points over and over. In the end Sean needed to leave and take a walk to gather his thoughts.

His arguments swam around his head but in the end, it boiled down to a couple of questions. Did he want to end the marriage? No, absolutely not. “The other question was, would he want to share her again? No doubt. He was addicted to sharing her now. The experience with Magnus and now with Colin. He was obsessed with them. The last few months he had masturbated almost nightly thinking about Chloe and Colin together. He had held on to her these last few weeks because he felt like he should. Did he really need to do that? Couldn’t he just let go and accept that his wife’s body was for other men? His deep arousal answered his question. It wasn’t like she had said he was completely denied access to her body but even that thought held a dark satisfaction for him.

He came back to their flat and said, “I agree to your terms. You can sleep with whoever you want.”

Chloe smiled at him. It wasn’t a joyous or self-satisfied smile, she was simply happy that there was a chance their marriage could continue. She kissed him sweetly on the cheek and held him. Sean became aware that this was now the physicality of their relationship.

“Sean, you are poking me with your boner,” she said.

“Sorry,”

“It’s okay. Why don’t you go and take care of it? I'll start dinner.”

The dismissal shot the final nail into the coffin of their sex life. The sting of it made him shoot his cum into the toilet all the faster.