New Start At High School

We recently had a Winter break, so we are starting off the year with our last semester. For me, this will be the most important period of my life, like it’s supposed to be. All of my new year’s resolutions consist of this plan, so I better accomplish all of them to make this year one to remember. I have everything ready to turn my life around, all I need is to stick to my plan, and most importantly, keep this new attitude I’m trying to adopt.

So the first thing I have to do is just wake up. But unlike most days, I wake up early. I take a brisk shower, make sure I smell real nice, brush my teeth perfectly, and spend a few minutes combing my hair. I also need to look good, but unfortunately, I don’t really have many cool clothes. So I decide to keep it casual, but I do try to copy the popular guys’ outfits. I end up putting on my best sweatshirt, some nice ripped jeans, and a simple tee with a cool design. My sneakers are probably the only thing I don’t really like, but I doubt it will matter.

I go to the kitchen to make my own breakfast. I eat plenty to have extra energy for today, because I’m sure I will end up spending most of it. I go to the bathroom once again and check myself in the mirror just in case. I’m looking pretty good, even though I look like this pretty much every day. But it’s enough for me to think I have the potential to be attractive. No, actually, I am attractive, and I’m ready to show it to everyone. But without much more to do at home, I prepare to leave the house, not even saying anything to my parents. I just grab my backpack, make sure I have my extra pair of clothes in there, and head out to my first day of being this new me.

While I walk to the bus stop, I check my phone to see the list I made. I have a simple, yet extensive plan to turn my life around, and the first thing is to go to school. Luckily, a bus comes soon, so I can go to school early, maybe too early. While the bus takes me to my destination, I try to remember all of the details for today. I even planned out everything I’m going to do for an entire week, so I don’t waste time getting bullied, or distracting myself with something stupid.

Oh I will distract myself, alright, but I need to actually attend some classes so I can start getting my grades up. The problem is that I need to make the most out of every recess, which is the difficult part, as I can’t predict what is going to happen then. I only see those recess as my opportunity to talk to people, so I guess I’ll just take my chance if any opportunity arises. But apart from that, I have a general idea of everything I want to do. And apparently, I’m already at the school, so I mentally prepare myself to face the home of nightmares, but also, my dreams and the opportunities I need to become a better person, hopefully.

As soon as I leave the bus, I try to make the fake smile I’ve been practicing for weeks. If anyone is going to see me, I better show them the new me, so just in case, I need to leave my old me behind as soon as possible. I want everyone to see me as a different person. But as soon as I see the front of the school, all the bad memories from the past come to mind. It’s difficult to stare at that deceivingly friendly entrance, knowing everything I went through behind those doors. I can’t help but relive some of those terrible moments, but I quickly forget about them, as I need to adapt to this, hopefully, new, bright life.

I walk to the entrance. It’s not too early, so the doors are open. I step inside, and since there’s not that many people, I can comfortably walk to my locker. I do see a couple of people around the hallways, but they are either already walking away, or not facing me. I can’t be ignored when no one is able to see me, right? Well, hopefully they don’t ignore me when they do see me. From the entrance, there are two sets of corridors, they all lead to different classrooms, but there’s also a stair in the middle of the main hall to get to the upper floors. The school is kind of small, but it makes sense when we are about less than a hundred students in total.

But since the school is so empty at this moment, I take my opportunity to leave my things in my locker. With no one to bother me while I’m doing it, I can peacefully take out my books and place them inside. I didn’t leave many things in my locker, but that will change once I bring all of the things I need. But for now, I just leave some books, my extra clothes, and a bag full of different items that I’m hoping will be useful. I close my locker, turn around, and nobody is there to bully me or judge me. It feels great, I don’t know why I never thought of arriving early, this is so much easier to deal with.

But with the important stuff safely stored in my locker, I only now have to wait for class to start. I’m only carrying the books that I need for this first period and my phone. Speaking of which, what time is it? Did I come here too early? I check my phone real quick to see that there are about 12 minutes before school starts. That gives me a sense of relief, but I can feel myself becoming anxious to see all of the other students. So to not stress out too much, I walk around the hallways a bit. It’s too weird to walk around the school alone, I should just take a seat.

I sit on a bench near the bathrooms, and I almost want to check in the mirror if I still look good, but I trust my instincts. However, while I’m distracted, I’m caught off guard by someone poking my shoulder. I know no one would approach me to talk to me, except one or two people. So when I look up and see a pretty girl with colorful hair, giving me a warm, friendly smile, I know instantly who she is.