Emily wants to be my girlfriend

“I don’t just want this to be a one-time thing,” Emily continues. “I want more than just being one of your clients. When I saw you, and you were glad to see me, I was hoping everything would be good between us. I was hoping for a chance to tell you—I wanted to be your girl, and then suddenly we had to leave, but I’ve never forgotten you. I was hoping you might be interested in me, too—and then I saw your card, and I couldn’t resist. I still feel connected to you; it wasn’t just fucking, for me; I really felt you were making love to me, and I was to you. I think I love you; I think I always have. I have to know—is there a chance you could love me? Will you be my man?”

I feel stunned. I didn’t see this coming. I guess I’ve gotten too accustomed to the friendzone, because it never occurred to me that Emily might have feelings for me in that way. What do I feel for her? I’m in too much of a roil to know with any certainty; but at the very least, I’m sure I could love Emily, and dead sure I’d love Emilying a bed with her.

That leaves two questions. First, what about Danni? I’ve been trying to build toward a romantic relationship there. I’ve been quite hopeful about it as I’ve been getting to know her; but there are no guarantees. Should I let what might be with someone I’m only beginning to know well matter more than what’s right in front of me with Emily? In some ways, I suppose I don’t know Emily as well as it feels like I do; but the foundation is there, and the history is there, and a relationship with her is much more certain.

Second, what about my business? If I have a girlfriend, will I have to give it up? I have to admit, if Emily (or any other girl) thought going around eating pussy for money was cheating on her, I couldn’t really argue. I don’t want to quit doing it, for a lot of reasons; but would I really value that more than having a girlfriend? Is there any chance she’ll be OK with it?