Emily is conflicted

Emily says hesitantly, “I’ve always wished I could have been your girl; but I never thought I’d see you again. I—I have a boyfriend . . . I don’t think I should just dump him. I probably shouldn’t do this again, at least right now; I just couldn’t resist. I’m sorry—I don’t want to hurt you. I’ve wanted you so much over the years. If I dumped him, would you want me?”

She’s starting to babble, so I put a hand gently on her lips; she sucks a finger into her mouth. “Emily, don’t worry. You haven’t hurt me. This has been wonderful, and nothing will change that. If you decide to stay with your boyfriend, I’m just glad to have you as a friend again. If you decide you want me to be your boyfriend—that’s very appealing to me, but you understand, I wasn’t expecting any of this; it’s all very much a surprise.”

“I understand,” Emily says quietly, in a relieved tone of voice. “I won’t push you, just like I wouldn’t be ready to be pushed. And whatever else—it’s good to have you as a friend again.”

It’s very good, in fact; but it leaves me with a couple things I need to think about in case Emily decides she wants me, or someone else does. First, what about Danni? I’ve been trying to build toward a romantic relationship there. I’ve been quite hopeful about it as I’ve been getting to know her; but there are no guarantees. How much should I let that hope stand in the way of a different relationship?

Second, what about my business? If I have a girlfriend, will I have to give it up? I have to admit, if Emily (or any other girl) thought going around eating pussy for money was cheating on her, I couldn’t really argue. I don’t want to quit doing it, for a lot of reasons; but would I really value that more than having a girlfriend? Is there any chance she’ll be OK with it?