Becoming a Cinnamon Roll: Take 2

I was expecting for my time with Liz, after the debacle, to be more fem.

Probably extra scantily clad or some variety of fetish wear.

Honestly with the nun outfit she had been wearing the first time I met her at the club, I had some ideas on how this would go.

I was not expecting to be in a sweater and skirt that screamed 'Liberian excited to tell you all about the dewy decimal system.'

The sharp sting of a whip and commanding training on how to be a perfect sub for someone was something I had expected.

"Girl down on all fours, crawl over here I want you to give me head like Seb is always bragging about." It was another day of training with Liz and she was focusing on how quickly I could switch from a task she laid out that needed to be done right and immediately getting into what ever position she wanted without messing up the first.

I was doing my best but between how horny this all left me and how quickly she wanted results I was having trouble not messing up my tasks.

Like this one, I was taking all the dishes out of the cabinet and rewashing them because I had missed a spot on one because she had bent me over last session and fucked my brains out in her kitchen.

Bracing and widening my stance was all I could do before she was removing my training plug and sending me to nirvana.

'God I hope I put those dishes down in the right place to finish later.' Was my only thought as I crawled over to her the way my temporary owner had taught me.

She seemed to be wanting to instruct me while I gave her head, apparently by attention on eating her pussy was no excuse to not listen to my Dom.

I'd been getting better but near the beginning I had trouble doing one or the other at the same time to the same extent.

Liz had trained that out of me along with several other bad habits, and trained in some fun new ones.

"Ok pet, what is the safe word for today?"

My quarter second before my answer had her tightening her grip on the whip she enjoyed using on me.

But I had been getting better at that too, "Pineapple ma'am or three slaps on the nearest surface." Quick enough this time thankfully.

Though in truthfully I was learning to enjoy the whip too, it would be counter productive to revel in it.

Instead of a crack of the whip she ran her hands through my hair as I got back to work, "Good girl, I'm surprised to be honest, I've not had to whip you today at all. A little disappointed, I so enjoyed the sounds you made."

"I could act out if you want ma'am." I Coyly add, "even wiggle my ass for you while doing it."

"No bet, no need to see how good of a brat you can be, that's not our focus right now is it?"

A quick "No" before returning my attention to her clit. It was my goal, aside from everything else, to make her break character or voice hitch while giving her head.

She was too experienced at being a Dom, I'd had her cum mid sentence and if not for the tightening of her muscles and getting even wetter I would have never known.

"That's right dear, what is our focus?"

Seemed she wanted to see how clearheaded I was despite the situation and my own clear arousal. "To make sure I can take care of my Dom as is right while taking care of their property."

"Correct, but why and what else?"

Her hands went to my hair and I went back to her dripping wet pussy. She wanted me to mess up somewhere but clearly the answers were more important than the rest.

"Because my Dom, and all their things, should be the most important thing in my life. Because I am theirs I need to guard myself from my self destructive tendencies." That last part was harder to say than anything else but I had finally admitted to myself that I was self destructive especially if it was over something I thought my Dom wanted or to avoid bothering them.

"That's a good pet, now the rest."

"Do you mean what you taught me about what Alice wants in a woman?"

"Yes pet, from the top."

She really tended to focus on my thoughts and what understood, said that deviation from it was the first sign that something was going wrong in my cute little sub head. I didn't know if I believed that but it was important to her so it was to me.

"You are making me in a quote 'Cinnamon roll', at my request to be Alice's perfect dream girl. Hot, Soft, sweet, gooey, cozy, to taste and smell like the home everyone wishes they had when watching a hallmark holiday movie. Or A nerdy girl, full of life, kind and caring, but with depth below the surface."

I pause to get back to my work at the alter of her pleasure, but just long enough she knows I didn't forget part of my job here.

I would be doing so every time I ended a sentence if I could remember too, her training had made a huge difference but ignoring the sex and intimacy of this moment was never going to be 100%.

"Hot as in a rocking body the envy of every porn star.

Soft as in kind and caring, not in a fake way but in a real way. Even when on one is looking.

Sweet, affectionate, I should always feel affection and express it when ever reasonable. BUT never fake it, fake sugar tastes bitter in the mouth.

Gooey, I should always be ready to melt for my Dom, ready to go at a moments notice baring unforeseen problems or other issues.

Cozy, I should dress in a homey way that makes me comfortable unless ordered otherwise, All my sex appeal should come from foundational things, like I could dress up into a 10/10 at any time, but not dress down too much, hiding it, either. I should be a picture of potential ready to be taken home and enjoyed.

Taste and smell like home, I should always smell nice like vanilla or other relaxing scents, I should always taste clean and like I take care of myself, good hygiene and diet are critical.

I need to be to make any area I'm in feel brighter for being there. Better for having had me.

Should be more than just my relationships or my Dom's needs, Hobbies and pastimes that I enjoy, that I can share if asked and put down when important things are happening.

Important is to be decided by my Dom."

Finishing my answer but not my other work I return to trying to make her cum again.

"Good, not the exact wording but I didn't ask for that, How would you rate yourself on these points?"

"Eh, no well but getting better?"

"Oh is someone in need of some positive self talk whipping?"

Of all the things she had made me do and planned to, this was the one I disliked and needed the most. Having someone make you say truthful nice things about yourself was... Not **** but felt like when you get a brain freeze, a good thing you're not used to causing pain.

"No, Just fact." Like all my answers she doesn't immediately agree with I have to defend them and not crumble acting like I agreed with the Dom.

The only thing worse than countermanding a Dom, is to lie.

"Explain."

My Body is hotter than Its ever been, I could walk down the road in a tight out fit and cause wrecks, but I'm still harboring my last masculine part. While I want them gone, a part of me from before feels like I shouldn't want that. A problem I will have to figure out If what you've been training into me and making me face are anything to go by.

I Really do care for you and Seb and I never stopped caring for Alice. The way I've shown this has been fucked and even when getting it right lately it's been almost entirely sexual. I've been so focused on getting that part down that I don't know how to be affectionate without it as a crutch.

With what Seb has done with my hormones I don't know if I could ever be not ready to go. God I'm giving you head and answering this, all the while in the back of my mind I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO FUCK ME.-" I Didn't yell this but made every syllable express the need always boiling at the surface.

"Girl I can tell, most motivated slut I've ever trained." she trails off, nothing said there that was news to wither of us.

"-How is that really enough? You needing me to train my task switching shows the weakness brought on by that, when we started I could function at simply unloading laundry for the kiss to my neck you gave me, let alone anything more kinky or teasing a Dom might pull.

Dressing cozy shouldn't be a challenge but its definitely a shift that harder than we want. I went from dressing as tomboy as I could get away with those first few days with Seb but when I got used to the idea and was enjoying be a girl I went as fem and slutty as I could, fumbling more than I would like to admit, Seb's help is the only reason that went well. Going from that to loving my curves but 'not quite' hiding them is hard to internalize.

Smell and Taste are good already, I've been on my hygiene and scent sense before me and Seb went on our first date, a few tweaks here and there and I should be downright irresistible.-" I somehow managed to flush red even more at having to admit that.

"Oh we know that part pet, I can still remember making you taste test yourself as I milked your hidden G-spot. Glad the yoga made it easy to **** you into that position." If I was crimson before I was Nuclear now. "How did you say it tasted cutie?"

"Sweet and Tangy... Not as good as you or Seb."

"That's just because we have an advantage you don't, Doms always taste better to submissive sluts like you than other subs. I can tell you that you are one of the tastiest subs I've ever trained... Continue."

"I Don't even know what making a place be brighter/better means like that, and the less to be said about all the hobbies I let rot the last few years the better."

"Good girl pet, that's a more honest answer than I've gotten out of you yet, well baring spanking one out of you anyway. You've come fair all things considered and you're doing great." A playful rack of her nails down my back sends a shiver through me. "A bit jealous to be honest, I wonder if I could convince Alice to share... How does that sound pet?"

"That's for my Dom to decide." She grips my hair. Hard.

Clearly my cop-out answer is not appreciated. "Cute, but that's not what I asked, I want to know how you would feel about it."

"Honestly I would feel sad if she said no, I enjoy our time together and I'd hate to lose moments like this with you too, but I'd not let that stop me from being with her. I hope she decides to share me with you two, even if only at parties. I'd miss you."

"I'd miss you too pet, I know Seb would the most, frankly can't imagine how he's ok potentially losing you, aside from you caged shame down there you were already shaping up to be his perfect girl."

"He's just a selfless guy like that, besides the more I get closer to being ready the more he is making us of me, he's getting rewarded as best I can."

"Ok, I can't let you keep missing this... GIRL HE IS IN LOVE WITH YOU AND IT IS TEARING HIM APART THINKING ABOUT LOSING YOU. HE THINKS IF HE TELLS YOU THAT OR STOPS HELPING YOU CHANGE FOR HER YOU WILL LEAVE HIM AND HATE HIM." Ok that was yelling, her hand tightened so I couldn't flinch away. "Sorry that was louder than I meant but its hard to get through to you sometimes."

That brought me up short.

"Fuck."