Ask more about your power

"I would like to know about my powers," you say. "Is it given by demons or devils?"

"No "

"Then what is it?"

"Are you sure? It could be considered difficult, even blasphemous."

"We have a covenant, don't we?"

"That we have." Libitina looks as the other person inside the room. "Look at her."

You do as you're told and sees the wanton expression on her face. "She's possessed."

"So were you, but less so. You know how magic works out, correct?"

Wizards and sorcerer who can cast magics to cause ground to change shape or plants to grow comes to mind. "I did my share."

"While most people understands magic as a being casted, in actuality, the one is triggering the magic merely yield the energy available around them to do it."

"Okay. That is slightly different from the books and what my teachers taught. But what is blasphemous about that?"

"Energy of different types, have their whims and preference. And here is the main issue. We pray to God as the powerful being. But God is not a man. It is a more powerful being. Of course, since we can agree that God is the most powerful, wouldn't therefore be powerful beings there as well?"

"You're saying that God is the most powerful energy of being in nature, and there are others not as powerful as well. You implied that they were the ones responsible for magics."

"Think about it like you have an invisible horse and you can ask that horse to carry you around. Of course, the more powerful horse is, the more that it can do, but the more fickle it will be. It may demand you to feed it the best food, to go along for training, or groom it often. Inversely, doing the same thing may cause that horse to grow more powerful."

"That is very profound, and more than I'm comfortable with," you admit. "But I get it. The energy can think and feel. If you treat them like nothing, you will get nothing."

"And just like everyone has their beliefs, I view them as either 'order' and 'chaos'."

"Like good versus evil."

Libitina shakes her head. "That concept is incompatible. What I hold as true is that in this world, there is orderly creation and orderly destruction. While they are two different forces, they always occur at the same time. When you cast a spell to grow a plant, an orderly creation happens. But at the same time, as the plant push out of the ground, an orderly destruction happens to the ground."

"What does this has to do with everything?"

"The demons are doing these two things as well. They can't keep destroying things non-stop without killing themselves, just like we cannot keep creating things all the time. There needs to be a balance to this." Libitina held up a finger, the one she had used to finger herself, and the same one you had licked. "Just as there are opposing sides to creation and destruction, balance has it's own counterpart, which is chaos. I serve chaos, and you will do so to, from now on, but to what extend is up to you. And the type of chaos we serve is life."

"Life?"

"Life ****," Libitina said while laughing. "Yes, necromancer is almost a correct description. But instead of resurrecting the dead, we cause chaos in the living, and by doing that, we receive boons."

"How?"

"By fucking the wench, the two of you are engaging in the strengthening the life energy. Lust, despite how dirty it is portrayed to be, is still part of life. Also, your fucking will change her life. It could be for the better, or for worse. It can be profound, or not so much. You don't know. But while we can talk about it at length, suffice to say, the two of you fuck each other while being engulfed in chaos energy, and because of that, you gain the favor of its deity." Libitina gestured to the wench. "That's why you want to fuck her, or if you want, I can provide someone else."

"What do you get from this?"

"I didn't lie in how I see you as my son. Then, wouldn't it make sense for me to want you to become an agent of chaos as well?"