Aftermath morning

Alexis awoke the next morning in her bed, sitting up and leaning against the headboard as she pulled her legs up, hugging her knees against her chest. Her eyes still puffy from crying herself to sleep, she began to rock herself on the bed as she considered her place in this world, and the decisions she had made up to this point. Her mind twisting and attempting to make sense of the memory and the dream or nightmare Hekate had **** her to confront when they were joined.

Soft footsteps could be heard coming down the hall, and then with a soft creak the door opens. Alexis still lost in her own thoughts, wasn’t aware as Fidelisa stepped into the room carrying a small tray with a cup and small plate of fruit. “Alexis, dear, I brought you something to eat. Dear?” Stepping slightly closer to the young woman on the bed.

With that Alexis shook herself free of her thoughts, blinking, “Is she still here?”

Sadness crept into the imp’s eyes, as she shook her head, “yes, dear, she said she needs some time. I think last night took a toll on her, dearest.”

Alexis lashed out, “And what about me, do you have any idea what she tried to do to me. First make me watch some monster **** her. She thinks that’s a good idea, how could anyone want to **** someone else to experience that. Then… then she made fun of me, showing me, my old girlfriend, maybe the only person I ever loved and that woman who killed me together. First telling me they want me, and it was the real me, not…not this….” Pulling the sheets from herself to reveal the female form covered only by a long tshirt. “They…they laughed at me, saying I’m not a real man. What the fuck am I?” Tears forming in the corner of her eyes, as she balled her fists up at her sides.

Fidelisa froze, eyes going wide, “She showed you Bestiola? She’s refused to talk about him since that day.”

Alexis growled, “I don’t know, I think she called that monster, Aranenos or some such thing. But she is just as bad, I could feel what she felt at that time, how could she do that to me?”

Fidelisa blinked, her hands trembling as she sat the tray on the night stand, and sat down on the edge of the bed next to her.

Slowly she leaned in to hug the young woman, pulling her head into her ample chest, and and stroked her hair. “Alexis, please Mistress Hekate, she is just awkward and not very good at sharing. But please understand, what she showed you was very personal. The demon, now called Bestiola attacked her, and **** himself on her. He was attempting to break her and **** her to become another of his playthings, but she somehow survived the experience. Not only that but she did something no one else had ever done, she defeated him, and because of her, he is now imprisoned for eternity, never to hurt anyone ever again.” Squeezing her tighter, “I’m so proud of her for finally being able to open up to someone, even if I’m so sorry that she did it that way. Please just realize she is trying, Miss Alexis, and she survived it herself.”

Alexis blinked as she listened as the woman held her tightly, tears still running down her cheeks, but she was questioning everything even more now. “She survived that, you mean that…that really happened. That monster is real?”

The imp nodded, still clutching her tightly and whispering, “yes, he is real, he was once a celestial with Lord Belphegor, and after the war he was stripped of his divinity and cast out just like the others that became the first demons. He had tortured and enslaved many of our kind and humans that have found themselves here.”

Alexis looked up into her eyes, “A celestial like an angel. But they are monsters.”

Fidelisa continued to stroke her silky hair, “I guess the humans call them that. At one point there were the eighteen celestial realms, but when the humans came there was a rebellion and nine of the realms were sealed from access to the upper realm and from the celestial realms, these became the infernal realms, like where we live now.”

Alexis could only blink, surprised and confused by the history of this world, “Aunty Lisa?”

The Imp smiled and laughed softly, “I’m sorry right now is not the time for a history lesson, we can have talk more about it later.”

Alexis just shook her head, “okay.” Still hugging to the ample woman.

Now as for what Hekate did, “I’m so sorry dear, before Bestiola she was such a sweet girl, a bit mischievous, maybe too playful, and a bit naive. However the pain made her strong, and I believe she thinks that exposing you to it here where it is safe and can be protective she will give you the strength to survive as well. Mistress Hekate doesn’t understand that not everyone can endure that and come out stronger.”

Alexis fought back tears, “but it felt so real, I could feel like he was doing that to me, even though I was just watching it. We were trapped, with no way out. I hated it, and if I didn’t run away, I would never have been able to. That creature would have devoured us, I was so scared I just had to run. Yet she lived it, how…how can she still be after that?”

Fidelisa just sighed deeply, holding her tightly and beginning to rock softly. “She does her best to hide her pain, but the scars are still there. She is so strong, and so brave, but only because she refuses to allow her past to control her. I feel she just wants that for you as well, and is attempting to teach you, although her methods are not the kindest, she does it because she does care.”

Alexis hugs tighter, “I guess, but I don’t know if I can ever face her again, she scares me. And after last night I know she hates me, especially after I ran away and left her to that monster. I can never be like her, and I really don’t think I would want to be so cruel.”

“Hush, now little one, you are far stronger than you realize. Alexis I know being this you scares you, but I have confidence in you. So when she comes home today, I need you to talk to her. She sees the potential in you, after all if she didn’t she would never have made you her daughter. So please give her a chance, she might surprise you, after all you are the first person I’ve ever seen her allow in.”

Alexis looked back up through her puffy red eyes, “Do you really think Miss Hekate will forgive me, she made it clear I failed her.”

Fidelisa sighed, “yes, dear, she cares deeply for you. Mistress Hekate is not one to hold a grudge, unless you betray her, and you have not done that dear. You are a young woman now, with all the new emotions and biological changes you have gone through without being allowed like most to grow into them. She knows that, and she understands, she has just been in her own little bubble for so long it is difficult for her to show others or allow them in.”

The young woman nodded, “I will try Aunty Lisa, thank you so much.”

Fidelisa smiled leaning in to place a gentle kiss on her forehead, “I know you will, darling, you are such a sweet girl.”

Alexis blushed at that, releasing the hug and shifting back on the bed.

The ample blue skinned woman continued to smile, “for now eat something and then get up and clean yourself up. You have been trapped in this house long enough, today we will be going out to find you some clothing you pick out instead of wearing what Mistress or myself pick out for you.”

Alexis just blinked once again, “you mean I get to pick my own clothes, ones that reflect me?”

Fidelisa giggled, “yes, dear, your own style, although I’m not sure what that is and we are in Gehenna, so we might not have what you would normally find in the Human realm. After all it is your life, darling, you need to accept it and make it your own. Now eat something and get ready, I will be waiting for you in the sitting room.” Slowly rising from the bed and walking towards the door.