A Need

I took a deep breath. This was not territory I wanted to explore. “I don’t love Xander, at least not in the way you and Cordy do. I’m addicted to him.”

Anya drummed her fingers on the table though she didn’t seem surprised by my admission, “Orgasms or cum?”

“What?”

“What are you addicted to? Orgasms or cum. I loved both of those from Xander and its seems my sexual experiences are being shared.”

“Kind of both.”

“Start from the beginning.”

“Nothing really happened when I first started at Sunnydale. Oh, I’ve heard from Willow and Cordy about how romantic he was, and then there was the whole talent show incident, but none of that really phased me. What happened is there was a point when I was trying to drive everyone away. I hadn’t really processed the dying thing yet. So I had the idea to do a sexy dance with Xander to get under his skin and also Angel’s.”

“This I’m familiar with. Xander described the scene many times,” Anya said bluntly.

“Right, but I really wanted to push it farther. So I took him into the back and pulled his pants down. I’m not sure what my plan was. Blow him until he was about to cum and walk out? Have Angel catch us? Well whatever plan I had went out the window when I got my lips around his cock. It just, wow, the taste, the feeling, and when he came down my throat, I felt pleasantly full. As much as I thought it would be a one time thing, it ratcheted up quickly after that. It happened when we first met Sheila…”

“I have no idea who this is, but Cordelia also mentioned her,” Anya cut in.

I stared at her in disbelief, “Sheila, seriously? The two of you get along so well. She’s the only one who likes your bluntness.”

“I’m not blunt, I’m honest and to the point. Tell me about Sheila.”

“This feels really weird to recap, but here goes. Sheila was a troublemaker. Still is in a way. Snyder put the two of us on a project together to prepare for Parent-Teacher night. Um, you know who Snyder is?”

“Of course I do.”

“Sorry, it’s just, you don’t know Sheila, that’s just, wow,” I said, shaking my head. I couldn’t imagine how we could have progressed without her.

Anya huffed, “This is normal, we have differences, but I’d really appreciate you moving on with the story!”

“Okay, fine. Sheila was late to our work meetups and didn’t really care. Then this new vamp showed up, Spike,” I said, pausing to make sure the name Spike didn’t cause any confusion. “He had this whole mysterious appearance at the Bronze. I was going to let it go and talk to Giles, but Xander wanted to take the initiative. We tracked him back to his lair and while we weren’t able to get our hands on him, we found Sheila tied and ready to be turned. Well, she wasn’t the kind of girl who got rescued and wanted to run away and forget everything.”

*For those who don't remember, this was Sheila

“So she joined your group?”

“Yeah, but first she was very insistent she pay us back. Honestly, I think all the danger just turned her on. Or maybe it's just because she's a huge slut. She asked Xander to tie her back up when he fucked her. Which he did, then he fucked her a few more times after that.”

Anya cut me off, “Wait, girl throws herself at you because you saved her and you acted like it was normal?”

“Is it not?”

“Geez…okay, I remember this with Xander, yeah, we saved this girl when a house got infested with poltergeists, but we had kind of already been down for a threesome before that. The wish must have taken that and made it a normal activity.”

I stared at her as she rambled, I should have brought Willow in for this conversation. “Anyway, I hadn’t been planning to join, then after watching them have sex I thought about just masturbating, but Sheila begged to be allowed to eat my pussy. I didn’t think I was into girls but I was so horny I consented. And wow, I’m glad I did. I was cumming my brains out that night. The danger, the new experiences, the skill, it was amazing. We were all late for school the next day.”

“And how many more times did you all have sex?”

“As a threesome? Maybe a few dozen times. Oh, I was also there once with Cassie, but I didn't do anything with her.”

"Cassie? From the frat...because Xander saved her and she wanted to pay him back," Anya said as she snapped her fingers. "Let's get back on track: you and Xander, how many times?”

I stopped to think, “That’s hard to count. There’s been periods where we haven’t been together, other times we were doing it multiple times a day.”

“Give me the rundown. Any other girls? And what happened with Angel.”

“I loved Angel,” I said without hesitation. “I don’t know if he overlooked what I did with Xander, or he just didn’t know. As for any other girls, not for a while. Er, well, there was one.”