«❰「The Highschool Master」❱»

I actually know exactly what I need, it’s quite simple too. All I really needed to achieve all the things other people have, to reach all of my dreams, to enjoy my life to the fullest, all could be solved with a little bit of confidence. Yep, it’s only that. Of course, confidence is what usually everyone asks, but at least for me, it’s very difficult to get it. I never really had that, like ever. Not even when I was a child, before puberty destroyed me, not even then I was confident. I’ve always been more reserved, not that shy, but just not someone that is typically the center of attention.

I don’t want to be that, but some confidence could definitely get me some friends, maybe even a girlfriend. But as hard as I tried, I’ve never been able to succeed at feeling confident. Sometimes, I’ve felt comfortable enough with myself to be able to speak my mind, make myself heard, but that happened mostly when I was at home. I only really feel safe at my house, because it feels like everywhere else there is someone who is going to judge me. Not even that, I just feel like someone could dislike me for some reason, and just because of that, I shouldn’t try to gain attention so I don’t end up embarrassed.

Basically, I want people to notice me, I want to talk to them, I want to express myself. But the thought of me doing something slightly wrong, or something that could be considered weird, even if only one person feels that way about something I do, that’s enough for me to kill all of my confidence. I’m afraid to talk sometimes, or even show myself in front of people because of what they might think of me. I’m constantly anxious when I’m around other people. I don’t know many of them, so I can’t be sure of what they think of me. I always try to give a good impression, but since I can’t figure out if people actually like me, I just end up thinking that there are problems with me and I should try to fix them.

And to be fair, I do think I have a few problems. Of course, no one is perfect, everyone has their flaws. But because I had so many in the past, I feel like people tend to judge me more than the average person. Hell, I don’t even know if I still have those flaws. My parents always made sure I felt loved, wanted, and even special. But even then, I’ve never felt like an attractive person, or at least I haven’t seen a single evidence of it so far. No one has proven that I’m attractive, but there sure are a lot of people who would call me the opposite.

And I really don’t get it. It’s pretty much impossible to get it in my point of view. When I look in the mirror, I see a slightly tall, slightly skinny, average guy. Sure, I’m not the tallest, I’m not the most fit, but my body could literally be used as a mannequin and no one would notice. Maybe I’m too average, but I feel like my face might be the thing that is holding me back. Although, even when I look at my face, I’m nothing but another white guy, black eyes, black hair, just straight out of a Sims game. I could be a npc in a game and feel right at home, and honestly, that’s kind of what I am in real life. I’m a npc in my own world.

It’s quite sad, because I’m probably so average that people don’t notice me. That might be the reason no one ever tries to talk to me, or why I can’t get the attention of no one. I’m not surprised to see that nobody is interested in me, but I also find it a shame. If only I had a girlfriend, I’m sure she would be pleased to have me as her partner. Now, I don’t know if I would be a good boyfriend, but I do think I could impress her.

To be honest, the only thing my body has that isn’t average is probably my dick. I don’t know about other guys, but having a ten inch cock is not normal, at least it shouldn’t be. I can’t imagine the average guy has a 10 inch penis, but if he does, then I’m actually doomed. But no, I think I do have that going for me. Of course, even with a big dick, it’s worthless if I don’t have sex. So even if I have something impressive under my sleeve, or under my pants, it’s not like I’m going around showing my dick to anyone, so I’m still just an average guy with nothing to stand out. I could always just tell people that I have a 10 inch dick, I’ve never tried that, but I think it’s just as bad as showing them. It would probably end in the same way, straight to jail.

I’ve tried to learn a few skills to become a more interesting person. I do have a lot of hobbies, I like a lot of different stuff, and I would even dare to say that I’m very skilled in a lot of things, ranging from computers, arts, music, and maybe even porn knowledge. I watch a lot of porn, I know it’s not a surprise, but it helps when I have no one to talk to. And that’s also the problem. I do have all of these things to talk about, but no one to talk with.

Even when I tried to talk about it with people at school they didn't seem very interested. And even worse, when I tried to talk to other people about it, I accidentally gained a bad reputation. Well, it’s more complicated than that. But actually, that might be my next problem, which definitely decreases my chances of meeting and talking to people. School probably is the main reason I’m like this, but I don’t know. There are a lot of factors that affected me, but all of them take place in school, so I guess I have to talk about them…