CycleOfHeat
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- When I'm not writing erotica I like to
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Favorite features and threads below
Many of my favorites involve a woman encouraging a man's desire either directly or indirectly, either for its own sake or for some other purpose she enjoys
A woman who controls and teases a man as a way of working them both up and spelling out what she wants
https://chyoa.com/chapter/Don%27t-peek.581667Women who get off on being wanted, exposing themselves, and being enjoyed
https://chyoa.com/chapter/If-you-can%27t-beat%27em.169678A woman who enjoys having a man who plays with other women under her rules
https://chyoa.com/chapter/Get-moving%21.430721A lesbian who is hot to control her girlfriend and to have her be enjoyed by men
https://chyoa.com/chapter/Tracer.796640A world where the villains turn heroines into unwilling sexual entertainment and toys
https://chyoa.com/chapter/%28The-Shadow-Alliance%29-The-Final-Gambit-of-the-Shadow-Alliance.1220397
https://chyoa.com/chapter/%28The-Royal-Family%29-The-Royal-Family-Ascends.1219781
https://chyoa.com/chapter/Heroinefall%3A-How-100--of-the-World%27s-Magical-Girls-Got-Enslaved%21.1685724Remember; having a desire doesn't mean you really want something, that something is normal, or that sometimes is right. Desire is just a feeling.
- When I'm not reading erotica I like to read
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Neuroscience and psychology books, memoirs, and philosophy-themed fantasy
- My favorite word for "penis" is
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- My favorite word for "vagina" is
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- I write erotica because
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My brain sometimes convinces me I need to explore something, need to see how others feel about things, or need to see other people show disgust or desire at things that have been bouncing around in my head.
- In conclusion, I am
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I don't want reality to reflect the things my brain has associated with sexual arousal. A lot of them are things I used to only feel disgust or horror toward, and most of the time I wish my brain still felt the way it did in the past.
I have a lot of sexual intrusive thoughts, and compulsive disorders and an unfortunate history of life circumstances gradually wired my brain to associate them with experiences of desire and pleasure.
I hope that no one whose brain isn't already wired in similar ways doesn't experience the kinds of changes I did, and I hope that I and others are able to rewire our brains so that our brains and bodies are more at peace. It is possible. Therapies for it exist, and can be done even on one's own time without a therapist if necessary. I'm working on it.
Progress ebbs and flows, and relapses happen. A gradual change to a desired existence is possible.
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Over time, some of my mental associations created a kink for lesbians and asexual women having sex with men. There are too many people who are either confused about the reality of things like this, so I want to provide some facts for anyone who might read this.
I've had friends who identify as lesbian, asexual, sapphic, and others, and I've talked with many women about kinks and life experiences from purely analytical frameworks (read: without erotic tension or intent between us).
(1) "Lesbian" and "sapphic" are a labels people can choose, and it doesn't necessarily mean never feeling sexual desire or romantic interest toward a man. There are plenty of bi and pan people who identify as lesbian, sapphic, and other terms that code "woman for women" desire.
(2) Many lesbians don't have any sexual desire or romantic interest toward men, or even for cocks as a kind of living dildo. "Appreciating" them, hitting on them, etc, is gross because it is unwanted behavior that feels uncomfortable.
(3) The same goes for "asexual" and people who may say they have no desire or interest toward physical contact. Some of them might have fantasies about sexual contact in a vague sense but not have a desire for actual physical interaction.
(4) Some lesbian and asexual women have no desire or interest toward men, but have developed conditioned arousal and kinks related to fantasies of having sex with men or having experiences with cock. For some of them, these are only vague mental associations and physical responses, and some desire actual real world experiences. Some of the people who feel that way also feel disgust and shame in those associations. Some primarily feel shame or disgust, and have compulsions that are somewhat difficult to distinguish from normal desire.
(5) Anything I write about lesbian or asexual women isn't meant to imply that all women want to have experiences with cock or men, or that they would enjoy experiences, or that it's ok for anyone to make someone else uncomfortable by showing unwanted sexual attention or expressing unwanted fantasies or thoughts (even as "just conversation" or "just things that I wonder about").
People should be respectful, and the minimum of respect is valuing someone being treated the way they want to be treated, as much as reasonably possible.