Make Me, a Mom and a Wife, Happy

My name is Angela. Some of my friends call me Angie. I'm in my 40s and I'm unhappily married. My husband has been cheating on me for years, but I can't divorce because of my kids. I don't know what I'm doing sometimes.

Over the years, I've blamed myself for many things: maybe I'm not attractive anymore; maybe I'm not good in bed; or maybe I'm too successful financially for him. I've tried talking to him, but I wouldn't get any progress. The reality is, I have always tried to look my best around him and I've tried to please him as much as possible. I'm 5'4 and I'm in great shape. I've also done quite well for myself in real estate. However, I've never cheated before, even though I wished I had a better husband...

A couple of my friends tell me to see what's out there. It takes me a while to bring myself to this online dating website, which isn't one of the bigger ones, just in case my husband might catch me there. I mention on my profile that I'm in a complicated situation and I'm only looking to chat. I put a couple of my more flattering pictures up there, but nothing inappropriate. My hobbies are jogging, watching TV, listening to music, and playing online games when I get the chance.