Facing Temptation

After years of searching, I finally found the woman that I wanted to spend the rest of eternity sharing every iota of myself with, getting to know her better while getting to know her better. Throughout somewhat of a whirlwind courtship, our love seemed to grow and grow as we learned more about each other and spent more time together.

After six months, we were engaged. I proposed at a romantic restaurant. She thought it was just our six month anniversary dinner despite the fact that I had recently initiated a talk as to where our relationship was going.

"Could you see yourself marrying me?" I had asked her?

"I couldn't ask for a better husband. I would love to marry you, though I don't know if you would really want to marry me. I can be a bit of a handful. Even though my former husband was addicted to painkillers and went to prostitutes while we were married, I wasn't completely blameless in the events that led to our divorce...."

Maybe I should have listened. I loved my wife, and I didn't want to do anything to ever hurt her. But then I met a woman with whom I have much more in common. Our senses of humor are more similar, we share a love of going out and DOING things (my wife is a bit of a homebody, which I thought I could take, but... apparently not...) and her sex drive, like mine, is out of control! (My wife has a very rare autoimmune disorder which essentially brought on menopause when she was in her mid-20s.)

I needed to make some decisions. What did I truly want? To attempt to develop a new relationship, with all the risks that entails? To divorce or cheat on my wife? What to do...